Love By Faith (BL)

Jude

"Mooommy! Mommy!" My son calling me when he entered the house

"Yes honey?" I answered while preparing our dinner

"Mommy, my friends asked me where's my daddy and when I told them that my mommy is also my daddy, they laughed at me" he said with a furrowed brows and pouting

"Come here my baby, we already talked about this many times right? It's okay if they laugh at you because I love you soooo much more than anyone does, okay?" Cupping his face with my hands and kissing his forehead

"I love you too mommy!" My five years old child hugging me makes all my stress go away

That question, is one of the questions about his father's whereabouts, it's some of the things I don't want to know because if it'll be revealed, many people will get hurt especially 'her' and I don't want that to happen

"Baby go and wash up, dinner is almost ready" ushering him to go upstairs

"Okay!!" He runs up the stairs

"Be careful! and don't run!"

When Jonah finished washing up, the table is ready with food

"Mommy thank you again for the food" giving me his best wide smile

"Honey, you're always welcome, let's eat"

I ended up with such a lovely, sweet and caring child. If I get a chance to go back in time, I'm still willing to make the same decisions and still have him, even if the guilt is eating me up everyday

If I'm with Jonah, I'll be fine wherever we are

"Good night my love" kissing my baby's chubby cheeks, he's sleeping soundly on the bed after our bed time story

I am hoping for him to grow up strong, healthy, happy and to love me with all my flaws

As selfish as it sounds but, I can't live without him in my life, I will do everything for him, even if I have to, I will literally die for him

He is a gift to me, my dreams came true when I have him, my wish of love

Everyday I hope it will be okay because sooner or later, I have to tell him everything