Life After Marriage

This morning Kanaya got ready to choose the wedding dress she would wear tomorrow morning. Kanaya is accompanied by her best friend, Ara.

"Is it possible, Bhishma is my soul mate?" Kanaya asked as if still unsure.

"Kanaya. Why are you still hesitating?"

"I'm not ready, Ara."

"Ready, not ready, you have to be ready. After all, he has proposed to you well."

Ara continues to try to encourage Kanaya. Ara wants her best friend to always be happy. Kanaya also chose a nice wedding dress. A white wedding dress for her to wear to the wedding ceremony. The wedding ceremony will take place at 08.00. Kanaya lives in the city of Malang, a cold city and many tourist places. After all the requirements have been completed. Kanaya and Ara go home.

"You're the only bride who bought a dress suddenly like this. Your marriage contract will be held tomorrow morning," said Ara while shaking her head.

"His name is also impromptu, Ara. Everything was sudden. I'm also actually still in a dilemma and can't believe what I've been through," Kanaya explained.

"You love Bhishma?" Ara asked reassuringly.

"I also don't know my feelings. In a sense, this is an arranged marriage. You know yourself, right, the man I like," answered Kanaya.

"You mean Hamdan?"

"Yes, who else. The difference between the two of them is very far. Hamdan is more like an ustadz. As for Bhishma, he is slang," Kanaya explained.

"Never mind, Kanaya. You don't expect too much from Hamdan. You've been harboring and hallucinating about him for a long time. He only thinks you're a teacher, nothing more," said Ara.

Kanaya is still defending herself, she is sure of one thing, that Hamdan has the same feeling.

"It's up to you," said Ara.

Hamdan and Kanaya teach at a TPQ. They are both Koran teachers. Often Kanaya and Hamdan go out together, and even then because there are tasks that must be done together.

Kanaya and Ara's arrival was greeted by Sinta, Kanaya's mother.

"How's the dress? Got it?" asked Sinta.

"It's okay, Auntie."

"Good, thanks, Ara."

"You're welcome."

Sinta invited Ara to sit down, while Sinta made juice drinks for Ara and Kanaya.

"You have to be very grateful, Kanaya. You can have a good and understanding mother. Soon you will get married," said Ara.

"Yeah, I'm grateful. But, do you think life after marriage is good?" Kanaya asked.

"Surely it's delicious. Some are pampered, and some give love. Some ..."

Before Ara could continue her conversation, Sinta came with a tray containing two glasses of juice and snacks.

"What are you talking about! It seems fun!" Sinta teased.

"You know, Auntie. Her name is also a young person," said the woman whose full name is Tamara.

"Yeah, okay! Auntie didn't go along with it," said Sinta.

Ara and Kanaya continued their conversation. Kanaya explained that marriage is not as beautiful as in the movies. There must be such a thing as sour, sweet, and bitter. Ara also understood what Kanaya meant, Ara said goodbye to go home. Kanaya must rest this afternoon so that she can get better energy. Even though this marriage was not what he wanted, he had to try to neutralize his feelings. Kanaya is determined to learn to love Bhishma, her future husband.

'I think the life I live will be like in an FTV movie, I will marry the person I love. Turns out I was mistaken, this is the real world,' Kanaya thought. It didn't feel like he was asleep in his sleep. Kanaya's days were like usual, she was used to taking a nap before she went to teach the Koran in the afternoon. At 17.00 he returns home. At night he fills by teaching lessons to the neighboring children. Kanaya who is a high school graduate always applies the knowledge she has. Kanaya wants to continue her education to graduate. However, it is constrained by costs. So, that's all he can do so that the knowledge he received in high school is still useful and he remembers it.

"Kanaya, you should stop your daily routine first. You're tomorrow right, the contract," said Sinta.

"I bear it, ma'am. It's just a simple contract tomorrow, right?" Kanaya asked.

"Yes. But, you still have to take care of your health," replied Sinta.

"Yes, my dear mother. Kanaya will always take care of Kanaya's health. But, Kanaya also can't leave the obligations that I usually do," Kanaya said while hugging Sinta.

"Well then, after you're done you have to promise. You have to sleep," said Sinta.

"Yes."

There are quite a lot of tutors studying from Kanaya. In total there are twenty children, they are also Kanaya's consolation when she is restless, sad, and angry.

Kanaya went to sleep, after the activity, she did as well as possible. It was hard for Kanaya to sleep soundly tonight. Kanaya can't imagine that she will have the status of being a wife tomorrow morning. Kanaya was nervous, doubts were still haunting her. Moreover, this afternoon Hamdan confessed his feelings that Hamdan had kept hidden for a long time. Hamdan couldn't say it from the beginning, he wasn't ready to marry Kanaya yet.

"Maybe I am a cowardly man. I dare to say everything today after you will become another man's wife. The lucky man who got you. I'm sorry because I just said it. Apart from that, I'm not ready to get married, I I'm also afraid of being rejected by you. I thought the feelings that I harbored would end up being sweet. You won't get married until I come to propose to you. However, I was wrong and I forgot. That woman can't wait long. Women also need reassurance, and women deserve to choose their happiness. I regret that I have wasted many opportunities. I hope you are always happy, even though your happiness is not because of me." Hamdan immediately left Kanaya after he explained everything.

The woman was still thinking about Hamdan's words that afternoon.