chapter 1 first day of school

Why the fuck do I hear a loud ass ring in my ear? I open my eyes and I see my alarm clock is set to 6 AM.  Why I set my shit this damn early? I look at my calendar and realized that today is my first day of highschool and that school starts at 8:30.

I get out of bed and got into the shower. It took me 30 min to shower and 30 to get dressed. I looked in the mirror and what I saw was terrible. My hair was a mess and matted, bags under my eyes, bruises and scars all on my face, my clothes looked bumy too. I wore a baggy tore up hoodie over my faded orange shirt and ripped up jeans. I'm a ugly girl wearing ugly clothes. How fitting. Well ain't no use wasting time.

I head down stairs to grab a bite to eat. Looking in our  fridge I saw spoiled milk, beer, and an apple that looked sorta brown. Figuring that the apple is my safest bet I grab the apple and sit down at the table.

As I sit I read a book quietly. Yes I love reading but no one knows that. Especially daddy since it was of mamas favorite things to do too. He'd beat me an inch to my death if he saw me reading. So I enjoy what I can while I can until 7:30 come so I can start walking. 

7:30 comes quickly. I grab my stuff and hurry out the door. I live about 45 min from Elkwood High (a/n. not a real school) so I'll be making it there at 8:15. It's located in a rich neiborhood on Church Street. Black and white people live there. Mostly white.  

Elmwood is a good city to live in. I just live in a bad part. Really bad. It's call the dead end or West Ave. The dead end is the only bad part of West, so when I walk , I walk through the white part of my street and turn right on Church. Boom! I'm at school. Easy, safe route. And quiet too. No one is walking at this time so there is no one to look at me.

I get to school and I see a lot of kids my age and older. They all had schedules in their hands just like I did. This place was huge. There were helpers in the hallways called ambassadors. They showed you the way to the places you needed to go to. I asked a girl how to get the Auditorium and she told me. It was in the Arts wing which was yellow. I also noticed that there were sings that led you to places as well. And that the halls were color coded too. Anyway I'm in the auditorium for orientation. I see a lot kids from my middle school and elementary school. I hope I don't have them in any of my classes. That would make my life less of a living hell.

Our super attendant was up on the stage talking about whatever. I didn't really care.  He was s super cheery old white man. He seemed cool. I like him. Then the vice principal was talking, and then some white ladies were talking. I didn't listen either. I didn't care to.

It's 12 noon and that means my first day of school is over. Now I can go to the school picnic. I'm real hungry.  There was sandwiches , juice, water, chips, cookies. It was good. Some of the best food I've had in awhile. I even stole some food too. No body saw me. At least I thought nobody did, until this black girl  named Alicia Maxwell and her groupies came up to me and started messing with me. They have been  doing it for years.  I see that there are new groupies too. I tried to hide and runaway  but they block my path. 

"Look at this fat bitch! Stealing all the food and shit!" Her and her groupies all laughed at me.

'Fuck you Alicia" I said back to her under my breath trying to stand up for myself. I was scared.

" What did you say you ugly bitch?" She said menacing , stepping closer to my face.

"I said Fuck. You." I mustered up as much confidence as a I could looking dead in her face.  There was a crowd forming.

"Fight fight fight!" The crowd cheered

Oh no this is bad. I don't wanna fight her! I mean come one, here is this chocolate , six foot, strong, agile black girl trying to fight me. Me. Two hundred pounds, 5'5 me. Yeah ain't no chance in hell I'll win. But I'll try though!

"I'm gone beat yo ass fatty"

"Bring it bitch!" And from that point there was no more words. I swinging and trying my hardest. I kept getting knocked around though. She wasn't even breaking a sweat. She was playing with me.

"Fuck!" I groaned. Stupid bitch kicked me in my stomach, and everything felt dizzy when I hit my head the ground. Before I could get up though Alicia straddled my waist and started punching my face repeatedly. I tried to fight her off, but there was no point because she was stronger than me. I was almost unconcious when I saw an orange blurr take Alicia off of me, and lifted up off the ground. I then was able to somewhat recognize the blurr as one of the security guards of the school.

"Come on get up let's go!" He yelled at us , taking us into the school. Once inside we were put in the Dean's office. Oh shit we in real trouble now. I'm in real trouble because if my dead gets a phone call the school saying I was in a fight? Oh that's my ass for sure. I'm already expecting to get my ass beat just for fucking breathing. I don't need the icing on the cake. I should have just walked away from her. Now I don't have no food either.

Our Dean's name was Mr.S. He had a complicated name so he told us to call him Mr.S for short. He was a short Mexican man with short black hair. He was dressed in a white button up, kakies and some black dress shoes. When he came out his office he had a stern look on his face . He meant business. Both of us were squirming in our seats. You see Alicia parents were rich. They own a couple restaurants out, and had a reputation to uphold. Everyone one knew them as the famous  black power couple. They couldn't afford their daughter fucking up in school. And I was already fucked from the start. 

"Now ladies I'm very dissapointed in you both" he said in that stern voice.

"We are sorry" we both said at the same time.

"Now I have called your parents and let me tell you they aren't happy. "

"Oh man I'm screwed!" Alicia complained. I didn't say nothing. I knew  what was going to happen. 

"But here's the thing now ladies I'm going to let you off the hook ok? You won't be expelled or suspended , but next time I won't be so nice ok? "

"Thank you so much Mr.S!" We both said at the same time again and quickly got our stuff to leave.

The walk home was horrible. My body was so tired and beat up. It was about 1:30 PM when I got home. My daddy wasn't home yet. He didn't get off the auto shop until about 9:30 today. He usually gets off at 7 but he picked up some over time. I was grateful because that means I didn't have to deal with him. When I walked in the door I dropped my bag on the couch exhausted. I go in the kitchen to grab a cup of water, not even bother I look for food considering we didn't have none. Then I trudge my way up stairs to my room. I changed into to some shorts that were about mid thigh and a baggy gray shirt and crashed on my bed.

Time ship.

"Get the fuck up bitch!" I jumped up as I hear a loud booming voice over my head as I sleep. I look up and I see my father, tall and dark looking over me. I back up to the farthest corner of my bed to get as far away as possible.

"Hey daddy how was work?" I tried but I was so scared. I didn't know what he was gonna do to me.

"Don't you hey daddy me you little hoe! You think I did 't hear about what happened at school!?" I looked into his eyes and he bad this crazy look in them.  I could he was drunk already by the way his breath reeked.  This wasn't going to be a good night for me.

"Daddy I'm sorry I wasn't trying to start no trouble, I-! "

"Shut the fuck up. I'm tired of hearing you talk." He stalked menacingly toward me as he spoke with a belt in his hand. I knew what was coming.

"No daddy I'm sorry please dad-!" I screamed blocking my face with my hands and knees but my words were cut off as he beat me.

"I said Shut. The.Fuck.Up!" He screamed  as he punctuated each with with each whip. I screamed, cried and beg him to stop. He kept going faster and faster.  I don't know how long he was beating me for but it felt like eternity. He stopped eventually and looked at me with with cood eyes.

'Next time think about your actions" he said coldly and left out the room. I was left there sobbing and hurting. But all I could think about was how lucky I was tonight. So lucky.

"At least he didn't **** me" I whispered to myself, silently crying myself to sleep.

And that's the end of chap 1! Hello my fellow followers sorry I haven't been updating any of my stories. I haven't been on wattpad in so long. I have been trying to get this story started for over a year and I am so happy to get the first chap down! I hope to be able to update again soon but there are so many crazy things going in in my life. But I will try. Any way like and comment what you guys think so far. Love u !