The Beginning

I think about the nature, the beautiful creatures within this world, how the wind makes the trees dance according to its rythym, people, the city, the face of someone you really love, the good or bad things i had experienced all my life. Those precious moments where i met new people, had fun with my best of friends, learn new knowledge, had new ideas about everything. I think about God, i think about the life that He gave us, but its depressing to think that sometimes most people abuse their life, those people that have not made improvements to themselves, those people who are always stuck thinking about the past. I realize all people go on that same page, we all experienced almost the same things but of course in different situations, different people, different mindset, different voices. The last thought i had was "What will happen if we die?"

The first thing i saw is a light while being surrounded by darkness, and came this beautiful man wearing white dress having this angelic face, his wings were so tall and big compared to his body, they keep slamming upward to guide him float among the air, his feathers were shining like a blue sky i feel like he's an angel sent from God. But is there really a God? is there really an afterlife? His look drifted down on me, the moment we met each other's eyes I suddenly became intimidated. He looks beautiful but he has this aura that is illegible to explain  

Then he said those words that made me confused

"You will be reincarnated base on your choice, you must think this carefully, I will give you 5 minutes to decide" he said, his voice was deep, I did not concede a single emotion when he said those words, flat like a planned speech but at the same time pleasant to hear

My confused expression vanished that instant. Recognizing that i was already dead, i was dead before they found out i had stabbed myself, i could't think about anything but those moments that i truly treasured inside my heart, i was silently crying until my one last breath. I didn't expect this to happen, i didn't even know that people who killed themselves will be reincarnated into some creatures again, who knows it could be anything within the earth or perhaps from another world, dimension, or universe. I thought there would be no afterlife after i die, i thought i'll be sleeping forever inside a coffin.

I look down, i have always wanted to be this creature, im always amaze by whoever created them, i always believed their existence. I always wonder what would it be like to be like them

"You have 1 minute"

I close my eyes, thinking this through very carefully. I wonder am i gonna still remember my past? my memories, in the first place I killed myself to escape the world of human beings, I wanted to escape from reality.

"30 seconds"

I breathe deeply as i look on the angel's eyes, my hands were at my cordial chest, I dare not to contradict any chances they might give, perhaps this is what life really is, a cycle, but what I did was suicide, I killed myself what happens to those people who didn't? Have they been reincarnated too? do they still remember their past life? I decided to drop all my questions with a single flash of smile as I look at this beautiful creature

"I want to be a mermaid"