Swaying Sides

"Is that a threat? Have you forgotten who's standing next to you? Is that thing really worth revealing what's underneath the curtains to him? Do you care for it that much?" He glanced at Felix with a twisted smile, assuming I'd care.

I do care. It's gonna be a pain to convince Reddy to shut up about this.

"No, it's not a threat. Just a warning. All I'm saying is that Fay isn't yours to use. I'm not done with her yet and I didn't allow you to touch her, did I?" My mouth slowly curved into a smile. One as twisted, as mad as his.

This is probably why I can handle Misa, isn't it... damn we're all unstable messes.

You know what? I've tried being doing the right thing. I've tried doing whatever I wanted. See the reason I'm even with the 'heroes' is there's always this annoying voice in my head telling me what I could've done and how good it could've benefitted the world.

It's insufferable really, wouldn't shut up. Maybe I wanted this path too. It just... makes sure the voice is silent.

Though... a want and a need are 2 completely different things. Life was so much simpler and frankly easier when I just didn't care about morals. Maybe this hero title is getting to my head...

"Now isn't that better?! Back to your true self!" Grail's eyes widened with joy.

I'm...

Giving him exactly what he wants...

No. Hell no. There's one thing I hate more than anything, I hate giving people what they want.

"Clearly, the person who invented the phrase be yourself has never met you," I snapped out of my insanity, breaking eye contact. That's a stolen line... not like anyone here would get the reference though...

Damn... it's so easy to push me off the edge... is it that easy to get into my head these days?

"What's going on?! Answer me!" Damon repeated again and again like a toddler wanting attention and care.

"I have an offer for you, Amber. Replace Fay. If you agree to be under my command Fay will be as good as free. You're much more fun, somedays... I wished it was you that was the one dragged out of that chamber back then,"

He knows about it...

H-He... k-knows...

With only a mere mention of that place I shook. From anger? From fear? Hell if I know. T-That place... just the thought... it makes my legs weak and want to collapse, but also fills me with the urge to destroy the source of all that pain.

"I-It was you... wasn't it? You... took her... made me... suffer alone..." My usual composure of control disappeared revealing only a quivering voice.

"All the rage and anger you have, take away and this what you really are. A scared child. A lost child not knowing which direction is best. That's why all I have to do is push,"

Am I... that vulnerable? No... right?

"STOP IGNORING ME! I'M NOT INVISIBLE!" Damon snapped

"Shut up Damon!" I shouted out of impulse, silencing him in the process. No matter how frustrated I've gotten, I've never genuinely shouted at him before... I don't think... I've ever even done that in front of him.

It's not his fault he's left in the dark... just... annoying when he tries to relate when he knows nothing about the experience.

Damon looks shocked... stunned from my shout. I probably a little too hard on him... "Sorry, been apologizing a lot. The word might lose its effect, but I am sorry. Just... stay out of it alright? You have nothing to do with this." I reverted back to my cold tone to Damon.

I've let Grail see through me long enough. I took a deep breath, calmed down, put on a confident smirk, "I'm afraid I'll have to refuse your offer. Both Fay and I... are not yours to use,"

"I'm afraid this is all the time we can afford at the moment," Grail looked at his golden pocket watch and walked away, "It's only a matter of time before she returns to my side. After all, she cannot LIVE without me." He glanced back with a smile and walked away with Damon closely following behind.

She cannot live without me? What's that supposed to mean-

Wait! Fay's cry for Grail... so it was his doing after all?!

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO?!" I tried sprinting to punch that guy straight in the face but was held back by Felix.

"You have a lot to explain to me,"