Feelings

March 5, 20XX

Xiu Ying looks so cute today. She's so focused. I want to talk to her...but I don't want to interrupt her. She came late to class this morning. I can't believe the professor pointed out that she was late. She looked so embarrassed. I know she's really shy, I got so mad, I wanted to- "𝓓𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲?" "Nothing" I say. "Hm?" The guy sitting next to me says, "oh, nothing" I tell him and go back to doing my work. "𝓓𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲? 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓘'𝓵𝓵 𝓴𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓲𝓽 𝓪 𝓼𝓮𝓬𝓻𝓮𝓽. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲..." I keep writing. "𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮!" I keep writing. "𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮!" I just keep writing, "Shanxi?" I hear someone say. I come back to my senses, "Hm?" I look up and see the guy that sits next me looking at me. "Are you okay?" He asks. "Yeah, why?" "You were scribbling in your notebook really fast and I couldn't get your attention." I looked down and see you had just scribbled all over your notes. "You're right," I say chuckling "just trying to see if my pen works." "Ah okay," He says and goes back to writing. I pay attention to the rest of the lecture. Once class ends, I head to the restroom. "𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮! 𝓘 𝔀𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓸𝓷𝓮." I splash water on my face. "𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮." "Let it go." I say, then someone comes in the restroom. I leave and go sit outside. "𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮. 𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓮." "Shut up." I say. I take a pill from my backpack, I feel better now. I walk back inside and see Xiu Ying talking to her friend. Xiu Ying is so beautiful. Her personality is great and she is really smart and intelligent...I love her so much. I want to tell her how I feel but I'm afraid she won't feel the same way. I will talk to her, I want to protect her, I want to make her mine, I will make her fall in love with me, she will be mine.