Endless Disconnect

"Tania, I'm leaving," the man's voice broke in the morning.

"Wait, Sis. Good luck again! Kee patient, Bro." Tania replied

In the room, the girl groomed herself in front of the mirror for a long time. I do not know, he has changed the robe and veil for the number of times.

What if Brother Rendra sees my appearance? asked the dimpled girl silently.

Already ah, I will not change again. It's afternoon, afraid of going to college late.

While from outside his room, Rendra has repeatedly looked at the clock on the wall. He was pacing and looked angry.

"Tania Kusuma Wardhani, what are you doing for so long!"

"I ... yes ... wait, Bro," Tania smiled. He hurriedly carried his bag. He made sure all the lecture material books had been put in his bag today.

As soon as the veiled girl came out, her brother was stunned. The atmosphere was suddenly quiet.

"Come on, Bro. It's time for us to leave!" Tania exclaimed.

Rendra is still frozen. He absolutely could not hide his surprise. His eyes widened and his body really did not move exactly mannequins.

Tania paused staring at her brother while giving a sweet smile dimples. He hurriedly waved his hand towards Rendra's face. Now it was Tania's turn to return her brother.

"Rendra Kusuma Wardhana, let's leave quickly! What's wrong with you today? Why are you staring?" Tania brought her face closer to Rendra with a teasing smile.

After that Tania stepped out of the house. Shortly thereafter, Rendra, who wore a silver short-sleeved shirt and black trousers, immediately stepped in, trying to catch up to his sister.

"Sweet sister. How come you didn't say anything ..."

"Already ... already Bro, I deliberately did not tell the same Bro," cut the white girl. One of his eyes flickered teasing his brother.

Her curved black natural lashes make anyone who witnessed it say Tania is very beautiful. His face now looks more radiant with a hijab bandage. Robe and matching veil, pastel color, Tosca blue.

Rendra sat on his motorcycle, getting ready to start his favorite vehicle.

"So the story makes a surprise like that?" Rendra chuckled.

Tania nodded. He immediately boarded the big motorbike, was sitting on standby behind his brother.

"Ready?" asked Rendra.

"Yes, let's go!"

Big motorbike also drove to the campus located in the Depok area. From the Pejaten area, Pasar Minggu, they need about half an hour.

Along the way the two did not stop chatting. Both of them looked very excited. From the first they were indeed compact brothers.

"Dik, I'm really happy you know. Look at you like this."

"I'm even happier, Sis. I'm proud to have you. It's all because of you."

"Why ... why ... because of you, you have to be lillah, because God Dik Manis," Rendra chuckled again. His eyes remained focused on the road that began to creep densely.

"Oops …Bro. Not like that, Bro. Surely I am veiled because of Allah. But my hijrah is because of my annoyance because of a supercritical Bro.

Rendra only responded with enthusiasm.

"Bro, what are the compelling reasons for breaking the hijrah and wearing the hijab?"

Tania feels this is a tough question. Looks like you asked seriously.

"Why do you ask?"

"I just want to make sure your decision is based on something strong. If the foundation is strong, you will definitely be istikamah. Because hijrah is not an easy matter, Dik. Will many challenges arise that test how strong your decision is?"

Tania looked thoughtful. But finally he spoke up.

"Bro, honestly at first I didn't like it when you always talked about the hijab. At that time I was still influenced by opinions that said that the hijab was only an Arabic culture and was not mandatory."

Tania sighed.

"Until when my beloved Mama left us ..." Tania's words were interrupted. Tears rolled down, remembering his mother.

Rendra was reminded of his mother. In his heart he immediately sent a prayer for his beloved mother. O Allah, give happiness to Mama by Your side. Rendra shed tears.

"After Mama died, I pondered a lot, Bro. Mama once said, She will be the happiest mother in the world and the hereafter when watching her beloved daughter close the genitals."

Tania's tears fell again. He burst into tears.

"I'm sorry, Bro. Why haven't you veiled since when Mama was still around. I'm sorry I ignored your advice."

"Bro, can you tell if I've veiled and how does she feel?"

"Of course, darling. Your kindness, I know. The reward for that pious child will continue to flow to Mama."

"Alhamdulillah, I'm glad to hear that."

Rendra's ears listened intently to Tania's curhatan. But his eyes remained on the road before him.

"About this month, I pondered a lot Sis. I read a lot of Islamic literacy, especially about hijab. Until the decision today and so on, I will forever wear it."

Rendra also shed tears listening to the narrative of his sister.

"Mashallah, Sis. May Allah bless you. Keep istikamah yes."

"Aamin. Thank you, Sis. Keep guiding me."

"Insha Allah."

Both of them occasionally shrunk as much as possible. The problem is both the difficulty shrinking because it is blocked by the helmet they wear.

"Sis, how is your relationship with Angga?" Rendra asked flatly.

"Hehe ... calm down Sis," Tania responded calmly.

"Why, calm down, do you already have a decision about him?"

"Already, Sis."

"Why just shut up, let's tell you. I want to know."

"Two days ago, I broke up with him, Bro."

"Alhamdulillaaaah," Rendra reflexively said this very long praise. "I support one hundred percent of your decision," Rendra was very happy. "But you're not sorry, Sis? He's handsome, you won't necessarily be able to get a guy like him again ..." Rendra teases his younger sister again.

"Geez, what are you doing? Are you the handsome guy in this world? For your information, I'm sure I'll get a handsome, pious man again. God will surely bless my decision."

"Aamiin. God willing, sister. You will definitely get a godly and best husband."

Not felt, big motorcycles that they 'ride' have arrived at the campus gate. The big motorcycle immediately headed for the parking lot. After that the brothers separated. Then each stepped toward the class. Both of them did study in different faculties. The direction of campus location is different.

Tania walked gracefully with a hijab. Along the way he bowed more. Not because of shame, but he wanted to try to practice what he had learned. Look down a lot.

There is a different impression that Tania caught today. The people on campus, both those he knew and those he didn't know, looked at him. Some looked at him with sympathy and respect. But he can also catch the impression of 'strange', such as appearing dislike, underestimating.

Is it because I'm wearing a hijab? thought Tania.

"Why hijab, if the heart is still dirty," the voice vaguely heard from a woman with shoulder-length hair Tania did not know.

Astagfirullah, only that sentence Tania repeated in the heart. He continued to walk until he reached the front door of the class.

"Assalamualaikum," Tania said, knocking and opening the classroom door. He looked at the watch in his hand. Tania make sure she arrives on time. Alhamdulillah, not late. He felt relieved.

When he opened the door, and his right foot had stepped on the floor in class, a familiar voice screamed in his ear.

"Taniaaa, Waiiit!"

Astagfirullah, this is bad. He wants to make something else. It's morning already screaming.

Tania hurriedly entered the classroom.

In class his friends have gathered. A male lecturer is already standing in front of the class. The young lecturer fixed the location of his glasses. He looked at Tania from the bottom up. Even classmates looked closely at Tania.

The lecturer named Kevin was as surprised as Rendra watching Tania wearing the hijab. His gaze did not flicker, but before long, he hurriedly lowered his gaze and circled his gaze in the other direction.

Tania sat down. Now he was relieved. Can escape from Erlangga. But the relief was only for a moment. No warning Angga, who wore a blue flannel shirt and chino pants, entered the class without a word. Tania covered her face with both hands.

"Sorry, are you a student in this class?" Kevin asked diplomatically. Kevin put a halt to Erlangga's steps.

"Hmmm ... not really sir. Sorry I need to be with one of the students here?"

"Tell me what you need?" asked the smooth-looking man, rather fiercely. Angga, your work is always like this, making trouble. When did you graduate, Angga?

"I just want to say to Tania. I LOVE IT VERY MUCH ..."

Kevin is freezing. Occasionally the man wearing a slimfit batik shirt glanced at Tania who covered her face with both hands. There was a feeling of annoyance because his teaching time was disturbed. But more than that, another feeling was torn. Irritating.

The class atmosphere suddenly became rowdy. The students said, "Eaaaa ..."

While Tania still covered her face. Still visible. His face turned red from being really ashamed. Tania really felt she had lost her face.

Tania slowly opened her eyes. He almost cried. But he tried to hold it as hard as he could.

"You are nothing. You are making a fool of yourself. It is clear, do you want to be clearer. We have broken up. POINT!" Tania blurted out the sentence in a trembling voice.

The class atmosphere is still noisy.

"Yeah ...

"Oooo ..."

The voice in the class split. They express the two terms. The two voices were mixed in an unclear manner.

Soon, the class was quiet.

Anga is still frozen in front of the class. His eyes were not distracted at the sight of Tania. While the veiled girl was still ignorant.

"Already ... Already ... Sorry you took up my teaching time, GET OUT!" Kevin stood staring intently at Angga.