American Dream

3 months ago

Confuse after woke up, saw a new clean and white house ceiling, he looked to the side and also saw papers everywhere, so many alcohol bottles on the floor, and there was a desk at the left corner of the room, and basically everything in this room was a mess. " Who lives here? Whose house is this? " At that time, that was the first thought crossed in his mind, and then : " Hang on a minute, Who am I? I only remember that my job was an independent movie director, I remember every popular and unpopular movies I've watched or read their scripts online. But who am I? I can't remember. I remember every blockbuster movies and literary movies. But who am I? I can't remember. I remember I have one wife, two lovers and six children. Basically a bastard. But who am I, I can't remember. " After that suddenly he felt an extreme pain on his head like there were so many needles poked on every inch from inside of his head. " Ahhhhhhh help, please help... Ahhhhhhh.... " he hit his own head so hard and pulled his hair, try to reduce the pain but to no avail. The pain was so unbearable, he couldn't stand it. He felt gradually he lost his conciousness, everything gradually turn into darkness but just before that he heard a little sound like a hurried footsteps from outside the room but after that it's all dark.

Me, Myself in the dark

"It's dark, so dark. am I died? Sigh,,, Just when finally i can understand the whole of this absurd situation, I suddenly died again. Yes, AGAIN. So, this is the darkness of death if only I can shoot this moment how good is that? even CGI can't capture this moment I am seeing right now. Wait, I can see in the dark? Yep, I can see in the dark right now. What I see is the darkness itself. Wow, now this is philosophically cool. I can see darkness in the dark without technology just with my own conciousness. Maybe this is the essence of death, only death person can feel this, how exclusive this experience is. Well, enough nonsense. By the way let me explain this whole situation that I just get it right now. My name was actually Raj Tanukah and I was born in India. I was an excellent movie director in Bollywood, or so I thought. I already made about 20 movies, all independent movies. I already submit all my movies in many festivals, Cannes, Venice and Sundance, I never won though but actually I thought that was because their level in artistic appreciation is lower than mine. How dare they to reject me the Great Raj Tanukah, I shouldn't have tried to submit my movies in the first place at that time, It was basically trying to match their low level thinking. Sigh, what a regret. Then one day, on the way to met one of my lovers, I got an accident and died and then somehow my soul merge with this Caucasian soul. God, why caucasian? and worst it was Australian, what can be worst than being an Australian. Un-or-Luckily, I am dead, AGAIN. As for my body now, my name is... oh there's a light right there, God must be hear my complaints... I think I didn't need to introduce my new identity right now, because I'm ashamed. Ok, see you guys in the next reincarnation. I really hope to be reincarnated again, and please God don't let me be an Australian this time. " after all those nonsense monologue then he embrace the light and emerge with it...

July 3rd, 1986

John Hopkins hospital, the fifth floor, in the corridor outside one of the VIP room.

" Doctor how's my son? "

" Calm down Rupert, your son physical condition and his brain activity is still very good, there's nothing abnormal with him. "

" how can this be doctor, it is already three months, three months doctor, how can my son still in coma if you said there's nothing wrong with him. "

" I am also hopeless Rupert, but this is the actual situation we're in right now, even every medical experts we invite also puzzled with your son condition, your son basically should wake up but he just don't want to wake up. I also don't understand "

" BUT, YOU'RE THE DOCTOR!!! HOW CAN YOU GIVE ME THOSE BULLSHIT !!! "

Rupert who finally couldn't hold his emotion anymore, roar in front of the doctor and tried to grab his collar.

" Rupert, please calm down, I understand your worry, but this is hospital "

" I don't care !!! I don't F**king care !!! You must wake my son up or else I will sue you and this entire institution !!! "

" Rupert... "

Just when the doctor trying to calm down the situation suddenly, there was crying sound heard from the room

" son... son..."

" brother... brother... "

Rupert and the doctor thought the worst situation might happen, panic, they hurriedly go toward the room

Rupert: " What Happened???"

Doctor : " call the nurse, and prepare the defibrillator "

sliding the door open, rupert and the doctor come into the room only to see a teenager about 13-14 years old sat on the bed be surrounded and hugged by Rupert's wife, son and daughter.

" James... " Rupert who see the situation can't hold his tears, crying and run to his beloved son who just wake up from a coma and hugged him.

" excuse me, excuse me, Rupert. You've to step aside, I need to check your son condition first. He looks confused "

" Yes doctor, please. "

the doctor who notice abnormal condition of James finally reach him and said:

" James, James, can you hear me? "

James who still engrossed in his own thinking and trying to understand the situation didn't hear the doctor's call at all. Just looking bland like an idiot. " In the end, I am not dead but only unconscious, hah. " Seeing the panic look of his father, the crying look of his mother and the relief look of his brother and sister, without him knowing the tears falling from his eyes. " what happen to me, why am I feeling sad and happy because of them, they're not my family. " that's what he thought but the tears keep falling and falling contradict with his own thinking. Finally he understands, " so this is family, my own family, I accept them because I am also part of this family. Because they love me, I also accept them without the barrier of identity just accept them unconditionally because I love them too." This is the instinctual love of human being that surpass everything. Familial love. " how embarassing, me the Great Raj Tanukah actually crying, just what nonsense I have been talking about in that darkness moment really want to make me suicide. I decided I'm not Great Tanukah anymore but accept my whole new identity. "

James finally back to the situation right now

" James, James, can you hear me. James. Why are you crying? "

the doctor trying to call James and James wipe his tears and finally answered:

" oh yes, uhm,,, doctor, were you called me? "

" are you fine, do you feel uncomfortable somewhere? Why are you crying? can you recognize them? "

The doctor asked James patiently while pointed to James' father, mother, and brother and sister.

Rupert see the situation worried and asked the doctor

" Doctor, anything still wrong with my son? son can you recognize us? "

James looked at the doctor and his father and said

" no, doctor I don't feel any uncomfortable, and Father, Mother, Lachland, and Elizabeth, I recognize all of you. "

Rupert finally breathed a sigh relief.

" Thank you god, and Thank you doctor. And I'm sorry I yelled at you before. Really sorry "

" It's fine, I understand. well for now, I'll let you guys talk for a moment, but don't talk too long, James just woke up and still need to rest for his recovery. well than, I'm leaving. "

" okay, thank you doctor. "

After the doctor came out, James asked his father.

" Father, where hospital is this and how long I've been here? "

" you've been here for three months, and we are here in U.S John Hopkins hospital now. Your sister found you at your room unconscious on the floor that day luckily she found you that day, if not..."

Hearing the hoarse near crying voice of his father suddenly James feel guilty

" I'm really sorry father, and Liz thank you. "

Elizabeth then answered

" it's fine James, just please don't drink anymore. you're just 13 years old why you have to drink alcohol. "

" ok Liz, I'll listen you. "

Lachland the added:

" James if someone bully you, just tell me, I'll help you kill those who try. just don't touch those stuff"

" haha... it's not that Lachland. but thank you anyway. "

and James turn to his mother.

" mom why are you not talking? "

" mom is fine son as long as you're okay."

James can't bear to see his mother still crying and hugged her.

" mom, I promise from this day on i'll never make you and father worry anymore. "

Deep in his heart he already accept his new life and identity. He loves his family and will protect them. He silently vowed " Yes, from now on I'm James. James Murdoch. The Prince of Murdoch. American Dream here I come. Hollywood here I come. "