Chapter 1 (Failure)

Warning: This chapter contains su!¢idal content. You can skip this one and directly go to Chapter 2.

A man sitting on his bed, watching a basketball match and totally depressed.

No lights, everywhere there is just darkness except the light of his mobile phone.

"Keep it on... Jiyu. Just one more..."

Suddenly something came in his head which was his regrets and he shouted and said,

"Just leave my head!!! I know I did something wrong! But... But what can I do... next...?"

And the man started crying.

"I... I chose wrong people. If... If I would have ignored his orders. If... If I would have chosen right people. If... I didn't trapped in additions. I... I would be there... With you... Jiyu."

The man's name Ishan. A 28 years old failed in everything guy who once dreamed to be like his big brother, one of the greatest basketball player.

"I... I betrayed my brother and made his life hellish like of mine just... Just in jealousy. I wanted... I wanted to be like him. But... But I failed. I... I even left her to whom I loved. How... How big idiot and criminal I am." And Ishan with tears in his eyes, laughed being mentally unstable.

"I want to end this... My have life... Has no more meaning. I... I don't deserve to live anymore, if... If I can't go back and change the things! Oh... It is not possible, right?"

And Ishan gave himself a punch and his nose started bleeding. And he said, "How big idiot I am, how... How is it even possible? You idiot, Ishan, hahaha!"

In the basketball match, there arrives one of the biggest basketball player as the guest of the game and he is Ivan. A player who stopped playing basketball after an accident in which his legs became weak and was adviy to never play again by doctors.

"He is still... Happy? I am... Glad. He... He knows that I was the one behind his accident but... Still never blamed and forgave me and what... What I gave him?"

The answer of Ishan was nothing and he knew.

Ivan is Ishan's big brother. The one to whom Ishan, with jealousy of success gave the baddest nightmare, taking away his career and his hobby, his passion but Ivan didn't did anything on it.

"I am tired of regrets... I want to get out of this."

Suddenly an idea came in Ishan's mind and he stood and watched all the basketball players and his big brother on the mobile phone and said, "I am happy for you all." And left the phone and it falls on the ground and Ishan started walking towards somewhere.

Ishan was stepping on the staircases and said to himself, "Maybe... Now I will be free from these... Regrets. I will not forget any of you."

Ishan stepping on staircases and moving towards the upwards floors and finally came till the end of the staircase and there was a door and he opened it.

Ishan was on the roof terrace of the building. It was late night and Ishan came at a side of the ground watching the night scene.

"Let's end with a smile." Said Ishan.

"Huh? Going to end your life, my dear Ishan?"

A school girl appears on the top floor where Ishan was.

Ishan was shocked by seeing her.

"Well... Nobody cares if you exist or not. You left and ignored me. To the one who loved you and you knew it very well but still..." Said the girl.

Actually, Ishan was hallucinating and the girl in front of him was his classmate who loved him and he knew it very well but in the end of the school, he ended up with insulting and breaking the heart of the girl just for "fun".

Ishan smiled and said, "You are right, I actually loved you but... Nothing."

Suddenly a school boy, holding a basketball in his hand appeared. He was young Jiyu, best friend of Ishan at a time but Ishan with his attitude started ignoring him.

"But you will spoil my reputation. Now I am basketball player and people know you by your brother and mine names. And if you died, I will have to wipe with fake tears but... Actually should die. What have you even done in your life?" Said the young Jiyu.

Ishan said, "It is my honor to see you both at my last time. Even if... This is just my imagination."

"Just go and die already. Don't waste time. You have already wasted your own time. But don't waste your time to go hell."

And this was Ishan's big brother, Ivan.

"I don't want to say anything because you already know what you have done with me." Said Ivan.

Ishan's eyes became full of tears and smiled and said, "... Big brother. Lucky to see you as well. But you are also the one to do something wrong... You never let me kill myself."

Ishan would be already dead if his big brother wouldn't have came and saved him again and again with a hope he can come back to the right track but can't do it.

Ivan said, "But this time I will not save you. Karma should be payed."

Ishan looked down and thought for a while and then said, "I ask for my last wish. Will you three together... Push me from the roof terrace?"

Ishan wanted to end his life by being dead by those to whom he betrayed. Even if they are just his imagination work.

The girl, Jiyu and Ivan didn't said anything but started coming near to Ishan.

Ishan stood on the terrace handrail and said, "Are you all ready?"

Ishan turned towards Ivan, the girl and Jiyu and smiled. He closed his eyes and raised his hands.

Imaginary Ivan, the girl and Jiyu pushed Ishan from the terrace handrail.

Ishan got pushed and started falling and said to himself, "Now finally... I will be relieved." And opened his eyes seeing himself falling down.

And suddenly the view became black.

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