It's just that I can't bear to see you die

There are things that would make Angel suffer more than death itself. 

Honestly, Angel doesn't find death particularly frightening, and in her own life trajectory, there have been many moments when she wanted to end her life.

It's not because life is cheap; on the contrary, her life is extremely valuable. 

It's just that she finds no joy, sees no light. There is no hope. The wealth that many envy is just numbers. The respect others show her is merely the halo of her family.

She knows clearly that without these things, people would not treat her with the same respect. 

So, she relentlessly flaunts her wealth, power, and resources. There's no need to make genuine friends, nor is there any reason to blindly offer her kindness. Because of her status, no one really remembers her good deeds.