Chapter 22 : To the devil, my heart dies for......
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"This things I do not know, This feelings I've never felt before, this strange presence, I..
Damn, I feel something, I really don't know what it is, it's eating me alive and all I keep on doing is to drown deeper.....
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"Well, here we are" His voice voice echoed, quickly bringing life back to me, as I slowly lifted my eyes up to stare at the old, but rather fascinating looking building....
"Are you scared?" He whispered, as I slowly shook my head, before taking in a deep breath, with my already folded arms....
"Am fine, Got it" I blurted out more coldly than I expected, before slowly drifting my gaze back at him, but he already looked away....
Damn, I guess I was a little too harsh, my damn inner self spoke out, as I pressed my lips confusedly, before fiddling with my fingers frustratedly...
"I....
"C'mon let's go" He cuts me off, as I could tell the little hurt sound on his voice, but decided to wave it up, as I kept on looking away angrily...
Damn, this is so pathetic, are we going into the warehouse or not, I thought frustratedly, as I quickly glanced back at him, before finally taking the first step inside, into the dark spooky, but at the same time pleasing place.
It's dark, but I love the aura, even though this was going to be the last place I would ever, and I mean it when I say, ever think of going to....
Faced with the memories of the one person I had loved the most, was simply no joke, I felt suffocated with every darn step I took, but I guess I had to be more stronger and fearless, than I actually was, even though absolutely everything made me sick right now....
"Damn, it fucking pitch black in here" He yelled out, as I pressed my lips together without making any shitty sound...
"You alright?" I could hear a faint voice banging into my ears, as I slowly traced my eyes up to meet his shiny bright ones, before looking away, trying to search for my phone, but I wasn't shitty here.
Must be in the car, Damnit!, My brain told me the obvious, as i could already feel myself getting frustrated all over again...
"Ain't you gonna on the light on your phone or should I tell you that" I mumbled angrily, as I could feel the mocking smile that must have already be plastered on his face, before he quickly obeyed, and obviously I was right, he was grinning dumbly...
Like damn, of all people on this earth, he was one of the most ranked ones that so always makes me wanna punch him right on his pathetic face
"Quit it and let's search" I spat out harshly, before looking away, as my eyes slowly pierced on a little dull box lying lifelessly at a corner of the room, as I slowly approached it to have a better look....
"What's this?" He questioned, but I decided to ignore, as I quickly opened the box, before gluing my eyes on its contents, as my mind down on what I had just actually saw...
"Letters?" I could hear him mumbling, as I could already feel my fucking emotions taking control of me once again, before my eyes slowly closed shut...
"Not just any letters, but my mother's" I mumbled quietly, as I kept on trying to fight back the tears and bitterness that kept on slowly forming round my eyes....
Shit!, this was what I was trying to avoid all this while, but I guess I just couldn't save myself and just couldn't be stronger than before...
This was my weakness, and now I knew that I had fell right into the trap like a dumb fool, I thought bitterly, as the tears slowly begin to fall helplessly...
If only I had fucking known that I would see this and be reminded of my past, I wouldn't have ever dared coming here at the first place, I hate all this shit, but I hate myself more for coming here.....
"Are you alright?" A voice slowly called out, bringing me out of my misery, as I kept on staring at the damn letters...
"What does it say" He blurted out, as I painfully squeeze the thousand of paper together, before slowly letting go...
"Why don't you fucking read it yourself, okay" I yelled out bitterly, as I kept on wiping the tears away, before he actually just decide to notice it....
"Ain't sure I should actually read this, you might not say this, but I know that you ain't fine right now" .....
"Read or leave, either way I would get to know how those bastards tortured her" I spat out with so bitterness in my heart, as I kept on staring away, with nothing less than pain, suffering and hatred in my heart, as he slowly took the letters away from my hand unsurely...
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𝑻𝒐𝒅𝒂𝒚, 25𝒕𝒉 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒉 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒘𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆, 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕, 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒎 𝒊 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒀𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒊 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 18 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒊𝒓𝒕𝒉𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏...
𝑴𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒐𝒏 𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒑𝒔 𝒂𝒔 𝒖𝒔𝒖𝒂𝒍, 𝑱𝒂𝒚𝒅𝒆𝒏'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒐, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒊𝒆𝒄𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒆, 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒐, 𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒐𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍...
𝑨𝒎 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒊 𝒈𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒓, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒊𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆....
𝑰 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒋𝒂𝒚𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒍
𝒊 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒔𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅, 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏, 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕, 𝒂𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒋𝒂𝒚𝒅𝒆𝒏...
𝑨𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔, 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒉𝒖𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒊𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆, 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅...
𝒊 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒃𝒆 𝒏𝒂𝒊𝒗𝒆, 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆, 𝒂𝒎 𝒕𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒔𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒂𝒄, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒎 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊 𝒈𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒔𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒆, 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒖𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆....
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"Ivy?".....
"A...am fine" I could feel my voice coming out more fainter than I had expected, as I find my eyes slowly closing shut, with bitter hatred enveloping round me...
Damn, I swear they would pay for this, for making her do this to herself, I swear..
I mumbled to my already teary self, with so much bitterness in my heart, as I kept on hitting my hand on the solid floor over and over again, causing it to bleed...
But that was nothing, Absolutely nothing compared to the pain and hatred my heart was going through right now...
I ain't a bad person, just have a messed up shitty life and that's all, and also as much as I hate to admit it, I do have feelings, and they were sadly taking over me right now, but now, I knew too well that I can't save myself from everything I was feeling inside me...
"Ivy!" I could hear his pathetic voice yelling out, but I didn't for once stop for one bit, cause actually why would I?...
My mother felt more pain than my blood spilling out, so I guess this was absolutely nothing compared....
"Just stop all this madness now" His voice roared out, as he quickly caught my bleeding arm halfway, before gripping it tightly, making sure I couldn't let go...
"Are you fucking mad'....
"God, that's what I should be asking you" He yelled back, cutting me off, before staring straight into my eyes, as his flicker something like that of pain?, before he quickly waved it aside, immediately bringing out a handkerchief to wrapped my already bleeding wrist, as I kept on glaring angrily at him....
"You shouldn't be doing this, I needed no help" I spat back angrily, as I kept on fixing my eyes at his blonde light hair....
"Just keep your mouth shut and let me finish with this" He mumbled back with a little hint of pain in his voice, as he kept on wrapping my hand angrily, as I kept on trying to yank my hand away from his grip...
"Just for one second, please just stay still and stop trying to let go".His voice mumbled, as I reluctantly stopped insisting before looking away frustratedly.....
"You'll get proper treatment when we get back" He said, as he finally let go of my already wrapped arm, before giving me a little small smile, as I slowly looked at my arm with my already ached eyebrows, before back at him
"Why on fucking earth, do you always act like you shitty care" I yelled out, staring with so much anger and confusion straight into his eyes, as he slowly fixed his eyes on mine, with a look I just couldn't understand...
Pain?, bitterness?, I really don't know what it was...
"I ain't acting like I care" He spat back, as he glued his eyes on my already confused angry ones....
"What the hell did you mean by that" I mumbled, still staring at him angrily with my already arched brows, watching him slowly let out a dead sigh, before fixing his gaze back...
"I really don't see the point saying I fucking love you, cause the more I say it, the more you ghost me like am some kind of shitty trash" He mumbled, as I kept on staring straight at his bitter sad eyes, with absolutely nothing on my blank dumb head...