nearly a year in

Damn, I haven't written in a while, huh? Well, time to fix that.

You know, I never understood why a lot of military or overall combative personnel turned to philosophy later on. But I get it now.

It's gonna be a year since the start of the war soon, and also a year since you guys got an actual chapter :). A lot changed for me. Both personally and environmentally.

I witnessed and experienced shit I thought was only in TV through the military, I got evacuated from my home, and my twin died, just to name a few events. These things can break you or build you.

I saw a lot of people break.

I saw people in the military horrified of what they saw and what they were doing. I saw evacuated people spiral into depression, I saw people who got destroyed from the death of a loved one. But I'm mostly fine, in large thanks to philosophy.

My mom is a philosophy professor, so I got slightly into that way of thinking, and it honestly saves you.

It allows you to process your raw emotions and thoughts, turning them into lessons or at least something more concrete. It sounds like crap, but it's true.

I didn't think about it before, but I want to learn it now. Not a career, I'm gonna do something different, but I want it for myself.

I think that at the year mark I'll write a long chapter recapping my feelings and how they've changed. I'll probably finish up this fic too. I regained the urge to write lately, and I kinda feel bad at this point.

However, I'll probably need to rewrite whatever I had I'm mind before this 10 month hiatus... Plus if shit escalates you'll get another hiatus. Well, you can't control everything. That's something I'll delve way deeper into later.

Sooo yeah, that's all for now. See you guys next week where I'll hopefully begin uploading chapters again.

But no promises! In this tense situation I don't know what's ahead. I want you to remember this and not feel too disappointed in things don't pan out