I decided to omit to talk about my desire right there. I mean, it’s about time for me to grow past that. And we did talk about it before entering the room. Both of us already understood that beneath the flowery words, our relationship was still unstable because of that seemingly boundless desire of mine.
It would just continue to ruin our moods if I keep bringing it up. My girls clearly hated it whenever I wallowed in self-deprecation. That’s why starting today, I will be putting a restraint on that.
Never will I lean down and blame me for every little thing. I can be a worrywart but I should also tone it down to the point that they wouldn’t be affected by it. I better return to my previous self of just ‘pure action’ and ‘less reaction’.
Even if I feel that way, I will just have to swallow it down.
Naturally, there will be a point in time where that will be an unavoidable topic. It’s up to us, not just me, to solve it.