Memories

Shiro was outside thinking as he was bent on the rail. "I'll be your wife, Shiro." He remembered his childhood days with Selena. He remembered their childhood antics and would always laugh at them. He remembered how close they used to be until she came of age and no longer regarded me anymore. It pained him so much when he saw her behave that way. And it was what led him to be outside. He had been chased out of the class because of his insolent behaviour as he kept disturbing her even when she got angry.

He was asked to go to the proprietor's office but he had boycotted that and was leaning on a rail that overlooked the school compound. He was deep in thoughts as he leaned there. He remembered how his eyes would light happily then and he would ask her if she meant it. In the background, the voices of those in the classes rang out clear and loud as they repeated what they were being taught.

"Really? Like, really?" Young him would say as he gazed at her. He had never gotten tired of her, she told him only a day or so ago that he had become so cold and distant and that she did not like it. He did not care.

"Yeah, let's make a pinky promise." He would say and they would wrap their little fingers and giggle. Then his mind fast-forwarded to when they had gotten into high school.

He remembered that they had a little quarrel on the staircase that morning and some of the students were watching. He felt that she no longer wanted to talk to him, that she was keeping her distance to make him go away. That was what bothered him and he had come to redress his unhappy lot but she wasn't having it. She wanted him to see the reasons why it was happening that way and why he should not be angry.

She would always continue to argue until it looked like he was the one who was at fault. "You are a straight A Student."He said to her that morning, that they were no longer going to be in the same class and he was shocked. It occurred to him that he was going to lose her. That was when it occurred to him that he was certainly going to lose her to some other guy.

"You just don't get it, Shiro." She tried to defend herself but he was not buying it. He simply couldn't believe that she would leave him that way and look back at how possessive and how he stuck like a leech to her, he shuddered at how awkward it looked now. He sounded stupid back then, he thought as a smile crossed his face. His mind went back to their childhood days again.

"We're in the same class again. Good Times." He remembered that they would make their pinky promise once again with the threat that usually followed.

"Pinky promise. If you lie I will make you swallow a thousand needles." They said and wrapped their little finger with that of the other. But things had begun to fall apart between them and he felt that it wasn't going to last long before they would finally part ways.

Ever since he had had the dream he wanted himself anymore. He would always think about it whenever he was free and that separated him from everyone else. His friends would complain that he no longer spoke to them and he no longer cared. Sometimes he would go on for a whole week without even asking about them. This made them pretty worried about him.

Selena was most worried as she would always berate Klaus whenever he began to keep to himself again. It looked like he was getting tired of her as if he had something big troubling him that he was not willing to share with anyone. And from what she saw, it was clear that whatever it was that troubled him was great and he was slowly sinking into depression.

What pained her most was that no matter how much she tried to force out the truth from him, it seemed he would always lie to her by telling Amber stupid stories about monsters and beasts that prowled the world, killing and killing all that was left in it. At a point she thought he was going mad, she thought he had lost his senses.

But he had not, it was just that nobody believe him, nobody found what he was saying reasonable and they believe that he was getting retarded or something like that. He remembered the first time she had approached him. He told her everything that wasn't what kept him thinking. He lied to her and every time she caught him he had to cover it up with a bigger lie. She soon noticed it and called him aside one day. She told him to tell her everything she needed to know about it and that she only wanted the truth this time around.

That was when he told her about his dream. And how it felt so real to him. She did not believe him. She told him that she didn't believe a nightmare would make him think like that. He wanted to show her the imprint on his arm that he had received when he was in his dream and how she could explain that. There was nothing to explain because it felt so real. After gazing at him for a while she clenched her fist in anger when Shiro told him the whole story.

He should have known that she had more serious things to attend to but here he was telling her stories that sounded so stupid. She was simmering in anger for a while. After looking at him for a while she straightened up and asked him. "Are you stupid?" He was shocked when she said that but he kept to himself, having heard even worse things from others since he started keeping to himself.