Chapter 31: Tired

Angelica's POV

How many months has it been na ba? I think it has been 2 months since grandma died and our second year of college started. I've been very busy with my academics pati na din sa Student Council and I am exhausted. Aral dito aral doon, trabaho dito trabaho doon, being part of the SC is sometimes overwhelming, sometimes talagang nakakapagod! Just like yesterday UST is a very big university so I had to cross buildings and walk since malayo din ang building nang Business Ad sa ibang buildings. Walter has been very busy we rarely go out, kapag weekends I stay at home alone, minsan pumupunta ako sa bahay nila mama at papa, or spend the whole day at the mall. Sa totoo lang Walter has been very different, at first tulala lang sya pero when I talk to him okay lang naman, but lately he's just so cold. I do my very best to understand him since I know that he's going through something.

It's saturday today ano na naman kaya ang gagawin ko? Ako lang naman mag-isa sa bahay kasama sila Manang. Si Marcus kasama si Leandro, yung dalawang pinsan ko umuwi sa kanila, si Walter ayun na sa trabaho. Grandpa even told him already na huwag na muna syang mag-trabaho, eversince grandma died grandpa drowned himself with loads of work, pero Walter wanted to help his grandpa, so everytime our classes are done he goes to the company and comes home really late, I stopped waiting for him ang sakit din sa katawan matulog sa sofa noh.

Ipagluto ko nalang kaya si Walter?

Tama that would be a great idea. So I went to the kitchen since our stocks naman is always complete. I decided to cook his favourite sinigang. While I was cooking I was thinking about Walter, I know he'll love this. After all, it's his favourite. When I finished cooking I packed our lunch, I took a shower, I didn't wanna smell like sinigang when I go to his office. I changed into a white 3/4 polo, denim jeans, and a pair of nude 5 inch Louboutins. I got my car keys and drove to Walter's office. Sobrang traffic it's still 10 in the morning, I should've went out of the penthouse at 9:30 kung alam ko lang na ganito pala kalala yung traffic. I honestly don't know any of Walter's schedule since hindi ko nga alam kung sino ang secretary nya. I guess I have to wait. Damn this traffic!

1 hour later

Finally, after that stressful traffic nakarating na din ako at last sa company nila Walter. I knew where his office was since he brought me here one time since he had to sign something urgent. I went inside the lift and pressed the 30th floor since doon ang office nya.

When I reached his office nagulat ako nang makita ko yung Ms. Lactatao na yun, wearing another slutty dress.

I was about to open the door of Walter's office when she stopped me.

"Excuse me, Walter's very busy and he doesn't need any distractions right now."

I scoffed "Maybe you forgot that I'm his girlfriend and I'm here to bring his lunch, didn't Walter make it very clear na wag ka nang magpapakita sa kanya?"

She smiled "Walter hired me to be his secretary it was a way to teach me on how to manage our own company, he's so sweet diba"

That hit a nerve I barged inside Walter's office and walked towards his desk, binagsak ko sa desk nya yung food namin, but I also made sure na di matatapon yun.

"Angelica, I'm really busy right now can we talk later?"

Hinampas ko ang desk nya sa galit "I tried to fucking understand you it has been months Walter and I barely see you! And now you even fucking hired that Ms Lactatao as your secretary are you even in your right mind!" galit na galit na talaga ako. How the fuck could he do this?!

"Angelica I need her please understand that" he was calm but sa pananalita nya I know he's mad. Wala syang karapatan na magalit sa akin I did my very best to understand him!

"I did my very best to understand you kasi alam ko na the death of grandma affected you bigtime, and you need to help grandpa with the company, I told you diba kung may problema ka sabihin mo sa akin so that I can understand hindi yung ganito Walter!"

"Angelica not now please I am very busy and pagod na pagod na din ako!" that was the first time he shouted at me, yung mga luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilan ay dahan dahan nang tumutulo.

"Tapos ngayong ikaw pa yung galit! I don't know what to do with you anymore Walter! Pagod na din naman ako I am fucking tired of understanding you! Hindi naman ako maghuhula para hulaan kung anong nararamdaman mo! Ano pang silbi na girlfriend mo ako Walter? I am here not as an extra baggage! I am here because you need me! I am here to understand you! Y-You knew I was always there for you, but everytime I ask you what's wrong you always pushed me a-away...pagod na pagod na din ako Walter...pagod na pagod na ako I-I think it's time for us to give each other space and time to think."

It was very hard for me to make this decision, but I know we'll need this.

"Angelica please don't do this, l-look I'm s-sorry for shouting at you...please don't leave me"

I couldn't even look at him anymore "This is not the end Walter, I j-just think that we need space from each other kasi hindi na healthy yung ganito" I started sobbing kaya nagmadali na akong lumabas nang office nya.

Pagod na pagod na din ako. I love him so much, but I'm tired already. So damn tired, pwede din naman akong mapagod diba? I know that I need to understand Walter as much as possible, I know he needs me, but how can I help him when he keeps on pushing me away?