ch 4. beginning and ending

joon and kook brought hope some food. "whats with u?" "think i am sick. flu maybe" the boys helped hobi to sit up. "are your joints hurting? i have some good meds if u need some" hobi noded. "would be nice. thanks. where is yoongi?" joon shrugged his shoulders. "somewhere. he asked us to give u the food. did u two had a fight?" hobi tried to smile. "no all okay. just a mistunderstanding. we are fine." in his mind he still tried to figure out what the fuck happend. why was yoongi this brutal to him. deep inside he felt guilty.

tae went with jin and jimin to town. they wanted to buy some stuff in the drugstore and the supermarket. they fooled around. both jimin and tae needed to clear their heads. "i want some ice cream. i ll be back." "get me some too!" jimin yelled behind tae. jimn helped jin to choose some ramen. tae stood at the ice cream aisle and tried to find his favourite. just when he saw and grabed for it, it was snapped away from him. "ooooohhh..." tae looked up. "hey there! remember me?" ".....tristan! right?" tae smiled. the guy noded. "u remembered. nice to see u again, beautiful" seductivley tristan whispered. tae blushed and smiled wide. "stop with the beautiful. i am not a girl." "but u are! dont let anyone tell u something else" taes face got sad. he felt some fingers under his chin and they raised his head up again. "dont look down. i cant see your amazing eyes if u do. wanna grab a coffee?" tae smiled again, he looked around for his friends. "just a moment. be back in a sec" he fastwalked to jin and jimin. "jimin, your ice. i am going for a coffee with tristan. see u in the school." jimin tilted his head to see the other guy. he looked back at tae seriously. "u wanna go with that guy?" tae noded. "be carefull. i dont have a good feeling about him." tae scoffed. "u never have any good feeling about any guy" jimin smiled mystericaly. if he only knew.

joon planned his next attack on jimin. he waited impatiently for him to come back to school. he needed him so bad right now.

hobi texted the whole day. he wanted to know the reason. but yoongi never texted back. so he called him. "what u want?" "nice.... a hello to u too. where are u?" "somewhere" "dont u wanna come to me and explain? thats the least u can do." "the least i can do? go and fuck this guy. obviously u dont need me anymore. i hate u so much right now. u broke my heart hope. never come to my room alone again. never touch me. we are done. i really hate u" hope noticed that yoongi chocked out the last senctence. his tears ran down. he knew he fucked up and hurt yoongi deeply. "i am sorry." hope whispered. "sorry will not do a thing." "than let me explain" "u cheated on me, i dont know how often, but u did. it doesnt matter if its just one time or more. u cheated on me! ME!" yoongi hang up. hobi buried his head into his hands and bawled out.

tae and tristan were chatting and sipping on their coffees. they had a great time. talking about their lifes, fun stories, their future. tae never had such talk with kook. kook never asked about his life, his dreams, his plans for the future. tae realized he was blind by his lust for kook. yeah it was just lust, not love. he was disillusional to think he loved this guy. thats why he let kook fuck him, thats why it felt good. nothing more. he just ran into something he thought was both sided, as it turned out there was never anything. he was sad, but he banned the thoughts out now of his mind. he wanted to know tristan better.

kook strolled around the streets. he heard jin and jimin talking about their trip to town. he didnt saw tae, so he thought the chance of getting him alone and talked to him would be now. when he walked next to the coffee shop, he noticed tae and the guy from the party sat right on the big window and laughing to each other. kook got angry and frustrated. he told tae to stay away from any guy he didnt aproof. kook wanted to storm the shop and yank tae out of there, but he contained himself. he stood right by the window and looked like to read the menue. taes laughter stopt abruptly when he saw kook stood out there. he looked lost for a moment, than remembered his conclusion earlier and talked with tristan again. ignoring kooks existence at all. kook couldnt belive it. tae saw him. he saw him and still. what the fuck was going on?

jimin hopped down the floor to his room. a note was on it. curious he opend it. "come to the card room in the attic. i am waiting for u" jimins breath hitched. the stranger! again he wanted him. jimin thought for a second to not go there, but his body was acting on its own. his feet were dragging him to the staircase to the attic. jimin looked around and took two steps at a time. panting he stopt at the cardroom door. "should i do it?" he whispered to himself. the attic smelled funny, it was scary up here, it was dark and silent. jimin took a big breath and opend the door, stept in and tried to see better, by squinting his eyes. "hello?" "i am here. u were fast" the familiar voice came from the darkest corner. jimin flinshed away. it was now really scary. "are u scared?" "yes...its so dark....i dont like it here" he felt hands hugging him. "i am here. i protect u." jimin pressed his face into the strangers chest. his body was trembling. "ssshhhshshshhsh i am here. everything is all right. u dont have to fear a thing." hands caressed his face and hair. jimin calmed down and stretched his body up to feel the lips. they kissed slowly and with passion. hands were touching their bodys. everything was diffrent. it wasnt lust or feverish touches, it was sweet, carefull, full with emotions. "i need to feel your skin" the stranger whispered. jimin raised his arms and his clothes were pulled softly away. after seconds he felt the also bare skin of his stranger. they pressed their bodys together, caressed each other, kissed faces, necks and upper chest.

tae noticed he had a shadow. he still ignored kook and walked with tristan around the town. he really had a good time and didnt want to waste it on bad thoughts. he never laught so much. when it got late tristan offered to drive tae back to school, which tae happily agreed. kook looked dumbfounded. he had to walk all the way back on his own. his plan was to to confront and talked about it with tae when they were finally alone, but now he destroyed that. kook got angrier and cursed.

yoongi moaned. he fucked this girl, who was running after him for ages. it didnt feel as good and satisfying as with hope, but at least he got something like a revange on him. yoongi will make sure hobi would know about what they did. the girl looked lovestrucked up to him. she didnt gave any sound out while they fucked, yoongi found that weird.

they layed on the blanket, the stranger brought with him. they didnt fuck. they just touched each other. they didnt need anything more. jimin pressed himself more into the other body, it felt so good. he trailed his fingertips on the strangers skin up and down, he smiled. they were silent, no words were needed.

taes door flew open and a fuming kook stomped in. tae didnt flinch, he was expecting him. but kook didnt say a word, just paced around the room in a circle and sometimes opend his mouth to say something, but didnt. he was too pissed and didnt wanted to ruin now everything by shouting and yelling. kook tried to calm down. tae was standing there and waited. finally kook stopt and took a big breath. "i get it. i dont own u. u were right, i dont have the right to tell u what to do or to whom u are talking with. i apologize for my stupid antics, but please stop this torture. please tae." he almost begged. taes eyes widend. he really was surprised. he expected harsh words, more bans, threats and punishment, but not an appology or a reasonable kook. "are u kidding me?" kook shook his head and sat down on the bed. he tapped next to him. tae sat down too. "i am really sorry. i am confused. i dont know what to feel or how to react when it comes to u." tae sighed. "i think we should have a break until u know what u want or feel towards me." "no tae" "u are just hurting me if we continue like this. and even i dont know what to think or feel about us anymore. if u dont need time to find out, i need it. i really need time kook" "u are breaking up with me?" "no. just a break. when we unreavel our complicated whatever we are or have, than we start again. its better this way." both were heartbroken and looked down to their feet. this was it.

jimin woke up cold. he sat up from the floor and looked around in the dark. "where are u? hello?" he felt a note next to him. jimin sighed and walked back to his room.

"sorry monchichi, but u slept so deep, i couldnt get u up again. but i hope you found your way back to your room. left a surprise in there for u. i like u...."

"like me huh?" he opend his room just to laugh out of happyness. balloons and nice flower bouquets where arranged in the room. jimin loved it.