6. Lonely Pain - 1

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"THIS WAS ALL YOUR FAULT. IT WAS ALL YOUR FAULT. EVERYONE LEFT BECAUSE OF YOU."

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-A Continuous Pain-

~Flashback~

After your brother took his own life, you have been all alone in this world. No one cared about you and no one will ever care about you. That is what you always told to yourself.

All your friends cut ties with you and left you alone. School was not fun anymore, since everyone started bullying you and calling you an orphan, which you were. The bullying started as mean words, but evolved into physichal pain. They kept punching and pushing and bullying you to the point you couldn't take it anymore.

You stopped going to school and were always at home. When you turned 16, you went to look for your first job. You found a good job with decent a salary at a local cafe. That's where you have been working until you were fired because of a little mistake.

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"Y/N! Please, calm down!" Jungkook worried.

"W- what happened...?" You asked with a confused tone.

"You were having a panic attack..." he said with a worried tone.

"Ah... I see..." you frowned.

Jungkook looked into your crying eyes with worry. He looked really worried. You didn't want to worry him anymore, so you swept the tears away and tore your gaze away from his. Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows and grabbed your chin so you would look at him again.

"Please, Y/N, if something is worrying you, you can always tell me..." He said with a warm smile.

"Oh Jungkook, if you only knew..." you thought.

"I'm fine..." you sighed.

"No, no you're not." He said with a dark voice.

"Seriously, I'm fine, let it be..." you tried to get out of the converstation.

"Y/N, I can see something is bothering you. I am just worrying about you..." he frowned.

You finally looked at him and sighed. "Alright..." you mumbled. "But after we've eaten."

"Deal," he smirked and immediately went back to cooking. You smiled at his energetic figure and stared at him while he was making you food.

DING

You got a notification on your phone so you opened it. It was a message from an unknown person so you ignored it. Another beep could be heard and another one. You were getting pretty annoyed, so you decided to look at the messages. You widened your eyes after seeing the messages the unknown sender sent you.

Unknown:

Do you know what will happen to you if you don't follow our orders?

You:

What do you mean?

Unknown:

Do you remember what happened to your parents?

You:

Why are you bringing up my parents' death?!

Unknown: [Video]

You:

What is that?

Unknown:

Watch it if you dare.

If you even try to report this to the police, we will kill you, remember that.

You:

What?

Unknown:

Goodbye Y/N.

You pressed the video in fear. You had no idea what it was or what it would be.

-The Video-

"Honey?"

"Hmm?

"Was it a good idea to leave the kids alone?"

"What do you mean? Jin-Ho is 20 years old, why wouldn't they be alright?"

"I don't know, I have this bad feeling..."

The video showed your mother and father on their way to work. You felt tears forming in your eyes as you watched the video of your beloved parents. You knew exactly how the video was going to end.

"H- honey... I think that black car is f- following us..."

"What? No way."

"But what if it is..."

"Alright, calm down, I'll try to speed up a little."

"Be careful..."

"Always am."

That made you tear up. Your father was always careful with everything. He kept you away from anything dangerous and was always there to keep you safe. He was the best father in the whole world.

"Shit...!"

"Honey!"

The black car was now next to your parents' car and there was a man dressed in black inside the car. The man was holding a gun in his hand and he was smiling like a maniac. He pulled the trigger and shot your mother in the head right in front of your dad. He screamed your mother's name outloud before getting shot in the head too.

Their car slipped from the highway and crashed into a streetlight. Both of them died from the gunshot. The man in the black car was never found and the case was closed. You lost all hope after that incident, but you lost yourself when your brother took his life.

You closed the video and threw your phone on the floor agressively. Jungkook jumped in front of the oven and looked at you with a curious expression. It turned into a worrying expression right after he saw your face and your miserable, pitiful figure trying to keep the tears away. He rushed to your side and took your hands in his.

"What is it?" He asked you with a kind tone.

"I- I-... an unknown s- sent me a video of my- my parents getting k- killed by s- someone-" You cried into his chest.

"What?! Right now?" He panicked

"It- it was 10 years ago..." you sobbed.

"Wha- why would someone send you a video like that after 10 years???" He asked carefully.

"I- I don't know..." you cried.

"Alright, uh, calm down. You're going to get through this, okay?" He reassured you softly, stroking your hair with his other hand.

You calmed down after crying to his chest for a while and pulled away from his hug. Jungkook was still stroking your hair with his hand, keeping you calm. You sighted and closed your eyes for a moment. Jungkook hugged you again, which surprised you. It had been a while you since you last got a hug from someone. It felt nice.

After you pulled away from each others embrace, you felt a warm feeling on your cheks for the first time in ages. It was a new feeling to you and you had no idea why Jungkook made you feel so safe and secure.

Jungkook smiled and stood up with you. You followed him to the living room and both of you crashed on the soft looking sofa. You on the other side and Jungkook on the opposite side. He was staring at you with his doe eyes, which made you feel butterflies in your stomach. You blushed and looked away for away. Jungkook chuckled and sat closer to you, still watching your every move carefully, examining you.

It was embarrassing. No one had checked you out that much. It felt like he was burning holes into your body with his looks.

"Y/N..." Jungkook hummed.