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I finally found a kindergarten for Liam were he would spend a couple of days this week for an hour before he adapted to the new environment. After Christmas and the other celebrations he would complete his training to be there.

He had been experiencing how to understand other people around him, he adapted to me speaking diferent languages depending on which person I was talking to. He also developed how to repeat words he found easy to pronunce and he uses different words from different languages as he learned the meaning. I'm so proud of him, how he blended in so fast and naturally.

I came back to the apartment with some ingredients for the recipes that have to be done these days as Liam would be spending time with others kids. I have half an hour left before I have to take him and be told how it went. I didn't noticed Yoongi's presence at first as he was lying in the main room to read his notes.

I started the radio as I sort the ingredients to their places and folded the reused shopping bags. Yoongi looked uncomfortable since he was shifting left and right continously but he didn't asked for help.

Having a device on as I do chores was an habitual fact on my day-to-day and the boys enjoyed having noise around.

I used to spend my days alone even at work so the noise makes me company, and it doesn't disturb my work is a little embarrassing when they record it because I'm singing along or dancing with the broom or other cleaning items.

I have other 10 minutes before going back to get Liam again and got ready de lavander bear and a cold bag so he could choose the one that would confort his shoulder better.

Yoongi's exercises are rude to his arm after being paralyzed for 2 months. He started to eat lesser and tried to get a lower amount of pills to make his pain bearable.

He posicioned tried to maintain the cold bag over his shoulder but he was u comfortable so I made him seat on an individual sofá correctly posicioned and the bag holder itself in between his body and the sofa. I needed in front of him and posicioned a big cushion under his bare feet and posicioned the bear inside a cloth bag over his coold feet so hi would be warmed slowly and could kick it apart when he didn't need it anymore.

- Why are you so nice to me?- he asked out of the blue. I tried to imagine why he was questioning me, it was my work in a way to me and I also care how they felt, especially him that was severely affected by his injuries.

- I can't see you in pain or uncomfortable, you were quite energetic before but your exercises are getting the best of you, an I believe that you want to be there with the group but sometimes being the slowest in a way its the safest choice so I can tell that you are stressed and overwhelmed with your recovery-

He was silent for a moment so I patted his head before telling him that I have to go outside to get Liam back. He wanted to move but he was in pain at the suden movement so I helped him get to the original position. He's eyes were watery and he tried to hide it from me.

I carefully caress his nose in a descendent motion - Don't be embarrassed by your pain, you are a hard cookie and I noticed how much you miss being able to work properly to be with them. It's normal not to be okay but don't hide it ... not to me I mean not to ones that care.- I kissed the top of his head before giving my word on returning really quickly to be with him.

Liam jumped into my arms as soon as he saw my masked face, the teacher was smiling to see him so energetic, she told me that he managed to go along without understanding what they wanted but he is a very social child and it was a success today. He will be coming back in a couple of days and we hope everything go smoothly as today.

I didn't wasted time to get back with Liam, ready to find a more composed Idol trying to work on his lyrics. As I got out of the elevator I got the impression that something was off, but I didn't saw suspicious movement or items in the corridor. I held my son a little more secure on my arms that made him grab into me as I checked the area. The door to the stairs was sigtly opened so I went to see if it was just my imagination.

I reached the handle and heard the footsteps going downstairs a good speed someone with long bleached hair was running to go outside. I called to the security guard in the entrance but he didn't pick and in the time he answered me the person should be outside. I checked the window in the corridor but it wasn't made to be opened and also it was mirror like in the other side and nobody could tell what was inside the building. I entered the apartment I varely opened door and closed it quickly.

There was the company director, I was properly introduced to him once but I didn't suspect that he would come here. Yoongi gesture me to come over so I did. We greeted each other and I introduced Liam to him but I politely asked for a moment to call Mr.Park and talk properly about the incident and the slow response of the security team in the building.

They got interested in the matter but I managed to convince them to do as we decided to proceed with unexpected intrusion. Mr.Park arrived not long after our brief talk, noticed the pressure having the company president here but he was waiting to the security manager to bring him a reason for this situation.

We were having sometime to chat about me and the opportunity to heard Yoongi and Namjoon observations about my work here. I learned that he came with the president so he was dropping his tings and I didn't know he was here at first. The security man came and made a brief presentation, they discovered that the security man that is supposed to greet everyone that could come in or out from the main entrance left his position and later they would investigate everything until it gets resolved.

When everyone but the group members and me left the apartment we relaxed a bit. Liam was having his nap and I attended the boys before he waked up. I was ready to return to my apartment. Yoongi stopped me but he decided to look around and returned back to the boys that were playing around before dinner time.

The following morning I was called from the central to meet with people that work in beter positions than me in the company and asked nicely about my son because I needed to look after him first. I Did our morning routine and shared with the boys the suden call from the headquarters during breakfast and waited until someone came to get us.

I finally found out the reason of the call, the same president that was at the apartment yesterday wanted to bring me along to a selection of trainees that have applied the company and this time the company was very interested on new faces because they need other services to be done to assist the actual groups and become trained as well to be and Idol not only on a proper group.

I was impressed by the large amount of people coming to the selection. First the president presented himself and the producer in charge of the selection today, the choreographer, a voice instructor and someone from the visual team. I was wondering what could I do here until he anunced my name and just said that I would interview them after they presentation to evaluate their capabilities to adjust to unexpected situations during interviews.

I used my poker face and shortly thanked for having me here and cheered a little bit the nervous people about to be selected.

Liam was sleeping in my arms and a gril asked me to left him in her care because it could be too noisy for him. I gave her my phone number so she could get me if my son waked up and wanted me. I politely asked what kind of person they were looking for and how they wanted to evaluate them, but didn't said anything about me being here. I know it's a very rare thing to be contacted like that but I will talk about it when they considered it was the moment.

The company wanted dance body because they have to divide up people so each group should have the same group and not to mix them with everyone else in the company due the virus problems. Other were to be actors or models for future campaigns and the last was some regular onthat wanted to become and Idol.

I saw carefully their presentation, I heard the other "judges " on their field. And I thought about how to divide them into the groups they were looking for and also know how good was their disposal to learn or understand other languages.

Some had good idea to diference the languages I used for them, some lost all their nerves because I asked them to do some ridiculous things on the stage and even singing lying on the floor with close eyes. And noted my opinions about each one.

I was asked to talk about my notes first and leave them as they decided on the ones chosen and to go and entrainment them until they would announce the results. Yoongi was muttering something to Liam and I recognized part of the equipment he used to work with. He greeted me and told me to go and make people concentrate in me until they would come back.

He looked around before held his hand up stopped his actions suddenly and decided to enter the company office were I was a moment before. I felt hot but took Liam hand and a mop that was behind the door. I got 3 bubble gum from mi bag searched my Playlist on my phone and created a new Playlist for some reason and folded up my clothes as if I was ready to do chores at home.

I entered whit Liam secure on my side as I hold the mop with my right hand. I cleaned up as I entered the room and got a little attention I comfortably seated Liam in one side with a little snack and a couple of toys from my bag.

As they started to murmur and Liam was entertained I started to blow the gum in my mouth. I started the music and started to clean around dancing with the mop as I usually do and sing along. I was totally focused on my task as everyone started to pay attention. After the first song wS a pause and someone asked me what I was doing.

I answered that I was cleaning to get their attention.

As the second song started I asked them if they have heard the song before and wr talked about it and gave a star sticker that was on my bag since my Christmas gifts.

We were having a good time chatting and playing to reconogize song when the profesionales came back and the cheered because Yoongi's there too.

They announced the results and on our way back to the Yoongi told me about why I didn't asked further questions about my task today, and also that they saw everything as I was totally serious about my lame approach.

He was smiling almost but hide it well in my opinion. The ride was a little hard on him but he could take it painlessly.

Jin and Taehyung were at home cooking dinner so we helped and talked about our day and were curious about the outcome of my unexpected work at the main building of the company. I went to prepare my tired child for bed and didn't closed the door even if I wouldn't come back to their apartment.

I noticed the difference between them towards me when I arrived and now. Namjoon was funny but quite innocent sometimes , Jin was more on mom mode when the guys acted up, The 3 younger ones were more bold in their opinions and competitive.

Hoseok would talk about anything and everything all day long and they all were very familiar and it was easy to guess they felt lonely in this kind of work. Because people could be scary sometimes. Yoongi was a little mysterious because he wasn't around for a long time.

I was wondering what to prepare to have tomorrow.

I didn't noticed Yoongi's presence but he suddenly came to me, really close, I was frozen but after a few seconds trying to decode his stare right into my soul I couldn't do anything but look back expectantly. My pulse raised I could notice the pressure in my ears, my skin becoming redder.

I wasn't breathing normally any more it was stopping to coming out because I felt that it would make him more and I didn't wanted it or wanted him to say something to breathe again. Yoongi's eyes seemed almost shaped to me with a dark chocolate color and short lashes. His nose is small like a baby nose and his mouth was pale rose toned, He suddenly bites on his lower lip and the air I was holding left out like a sigh. The lights here were giving him a blueish radiance and my knees failed me so we broke our stares because I was automatically seated on the floor confused but with the image of Yoongi tattooed doing that small gesture so I closed my eyes trying to get my brain a chance to get out of there.