CHAPTER 145

XAVIER'S POV

I can't do this. 

I can't do this again. 

It seems like that day all over again. 

Nicole left. 

And my mum couldn't handle herself. 

And I?

Some how that feeling was returning. The feeling that I did all of this. I am behind all their suffering. And no matter what, I just couldn't budge it off.

I ran through the hospital, not caring if I looked mad. I was mad, wasn't I?

Seeing hallucinations. Getting these random panic attacks, that felt like I was dying. 

Why did this hurt so bad?

It wasn't my fault, right?

It's not like I pushed Nicole into the coma. 

It wasn't like that then why was I feeling this way.

Please, end this. 

Please, I can't- God, or whoever sits above, I just can't take this.

Please end i-

"Oh- I- I am so sorry."

"It's okay. Please be careful though, as there are patients going around."