Love is a Doubt

I took the fittest formal dress ,it's Where everyone in the family also do the same 'Mum please help me ironing my trouser and Shirt' for me it's the most terrified thing to do particularly on such kind of a day as I always seems destined to cause problem in every thing I touch . I'm Reckless ,and everyone knows that. 'It's Christmas !,shouted my Grandma' in a loud voice as she usually shout to my Grandpa whenever he's drunk and came home late ,"would it take you any longer?" , it's already time ,you all are not gonna make the first Christmas service!.common hurry up all of us ,said Dari,our elder sister,but we're not finished yet shouted all Three of us boys , Otrei whose doing his hair,Bok whose just posing in the mirror as he already done and me."Mum I forgot my shoes!"what?"why ? what happen to you? why always you ?"I don't know how to argue , usually I always came out with the best excuse,but that day I just ,listen and look at all of them ,with a deep sympathy for myself ,they all look at me ,then came my aunt "Beidiah"as we used to say ," you're not going to church ,how can you be so careless?" then my Grandma "I don't know what's with this boy"then my mum "why what happen to you ",I already told you to check carefully before you left ,but why?.Then my two sisters Dari and Wanroi we have already asked him if he's forgetting something but look at him now, .It was really an intense moment and I lost it,I can't bare all the talking and yelling anymore ,so probably I would say it was one of the worst Christmas I've ever had,as I have already had a fight with my whole family , although I really regret it later because it was totally my mistake.But, anyhow I got to go ,I wore my Grandpa pairs ,as he would go for the Second service .But it was not an enthusiastic Christmas day ,my mood had already ruin