Fifteen foster homes in one year had to be some kind of record. I ran my crimson pendant along the silver chain around my neck and looked out at the pine trees zooming past. Where would they send me next?
"I don't know what's got into you, Casper," Mrs.Mortis said. Her hair shot out every which way and she wasn't wearing any makeup. The call to come pick me up probably came in after she'd already gone to bed for the night. "I can't keep doing this."
I eyed her. Was she passing me off to another care worker? Mrs.Mortis had been there with me from the beginning. Since the fire. I didn't want her to abandon me now.
"It was an accident," I said. I sat up straight in my seat and studied her tired face. I needed her to believe me.
"An accident?" She said. Her voice took on the shrill tone I had come to expect from her. "Mrs Sims said you threw a book at her. How could that have been an accident, Casper?"
"I didn't exactly throw it," I said. I bit my lip. How could I possibly explain it to Mrs.Mortis? Or anyone for that matter? One second I was arguing with Mrs Sims about a party she wouldn't let me go to and the next, well, everything in the room that wasn't nailed down was floating three inches in the air. "It just sort of-"
"Sort of what? Threw itself." Her face contorted into an angry grimace. She didn't believe me. I sank into the leather seat and sighed. No one ever believed me. Instead, they called me names like 'freak' and 'witch'.
"Casper," she said, her voice softening. "I've always tried to place you in the very best foster homes in the city. Places where I thought they would try to understand your…" she searched for the word. "Your unique issues. But this is the fifteenth foster home you've been kicked out of this year. And with your history." She glanced over at me and sighed heavily. "It's getting harder and harder to place you."
My history.
I leaned my forehead against the window and felt the cool glass against my skin. After everything I'd done, it made sense that no one wanted me. I closed my eyes and remembered the beautiful porcelain skin of my adopted mother, Jane. I never meant to hurt anyone, especially not her.
"At this point, there's no other choice," Mrs.Mortis said.
I opened my eyes and looked over at her. In the light from the dashboard, she looked old. Worried. Angry. A wave of nausea rolled over me.
"No other choice than what?"
She looked over and patted my leg with her hand. Not a good sign.
"I'm taking you to a place called Shadowhall Home," she said. "It's in a town south of here. Asheville. And the woman who runs it is well known for taking in children and teens who are struggling in the regular system. Like you."
There are no others like me, I thought. "Ive never heard of it."
"Asheville is a small community. Very different from Atlanta. I think it'll be a good place for you. Atlanta is just too big. Too full of opportunities to get in trouble or get mixed up with the wrong crowd." She pulled the car off the interstate. From the looks of it, we were in the middle of nowhere. "But I have to be completely honest with you, Casper. If you can't make it work at Shadowhall, I'll have no choice but to take you to juvenile detention until you turn eighteen."
I sat up. "What? You cant be serious."
A home for troubled children was bad enough. I certainly didn't belong in juvie. I'd known people who had gone to the one in Atlanta. It was practically like prison for teens. Constant supervision. No freedom. Strict rules. My entire body tensed just thinking about it.
"What did you expect?" She said. "Since you were eight years old, I've placed you in foster home after foster home, and you've been nothing but trouble for these families. Throwing books. Breaking windows. Fires."
"None of those things were my fault," I said. I could feel the stirring of anger and frustration deep in my stomach. How dare she bring up the fire. I had only been eight when that happened, and it wasn't my fault. It wasn't!
Change rattled in the cup holder that sat between us in the car. Quickly, I slammed my hand down over the top of it. Not now, I begged.
Mrs.Mortis continued on, thankfully not noticing the rattling noise. "It's time you learned to take responsibility for your actions," she said. "Make things work at Shadowhall or you'll go to juvenile detention for the next two years. I'm sorry, but this is your last chance, Casper."