I'm Sorry Hayden

"We can't stay here any longer. They will probably be attacking this village if they heard that we're not from this kingdom." Kyra said once they return back to the village.

"I agree. But we can't just leave them here without properly helping them." Zane voicing out. To him, it is necessary to finish their task first. He did not have the heart to look at this village condition. They are so poor and full of elders and women.

"How far that you guys achieve for today?"

"Maybe a few more feet before we can reach the water source?" Zane answers to Kyra's question.

"Hmm.." Kyra rubs her chin with her finger and she glances a bit at Farrell.

"Farrell, can't you use your abilities?"

Lowered his gaze to the floor, he shakes his head. "I don't know how to use it. Every time I try to, it all meet failure."

Kyra sighs a bit. Yuina at the side just sit and watch as Hayden also sit beside her.

After a few moments, Yuina finally voices out. "We gonna leave this village once we are able to help them and secure this place from the harm. And...Farrell, can I talk to you? Privately?" She looks at everyone before her eyes stop at Farrell with a gentle gaze.

Farrell nods his head and he stands up after that, leaving the house followed by Yuina. They both went to the tree yesterday night. Sitting at the edge of the small cliff there.

Yuina looks at the half moon on the sky and breathes the fresh air before she turns to look at the man beside her.

"Farrell, how old are you?" She started.

"Um…I'm..21 this year." He looked down at his hand. He feels a bit shy to look at Yuina. Since he knew Yuina is the princess of the Zirconia Kingdom, he tries his best to not act recklessly in front of her. He always put up his guard around her.

"Still young. I'm 23 this year. Just after my birthday, my father has been killed by the prince." She diverts her eyes back to the moon.

"But, someone saves me. Push me back to keep alive even though I was ready to follow my father at that time. He's the reason why I'm still alive till today." Yuina curled up her lips when she talks about Hayden. If not because of him, she also did not know what happen to her now.

Farrell is still silent beside her.

"I..I don't believe I am the reincarnation Red Demon King or not. I mean, look at me. I'm weak. I'm a crybaby. I can't fight. I'm basically a loser I think. But.." She turns her head to look at Farrell.

"Even though I know, I'm useless...I still want to help people. I couldn't bear to look at people who really need help and just walk away like that. I can't. it's my nature to feels obligated to help people who are in need. Even though I might be useless. Maybe I can do something good for them, soothing or ease their worries."

"To do that...I don't need the title of Red Demon King. I just need to be myself. I trust myself. And most importantly, I trust my friends, who keep supporting me from behind."

"So..Farrell.." Yuina reaches out his hand and wrapped it with his palm. That makes him flinch a bit and turn to look at her pure face.

"Don't feel like you're useless. We all here to support you. You have us. We believe in you. And..don't feel scared to me. I am an ordinary girl. I have no abilities as Red Demon King. I do not eat people and I sleep just like any other people too. I'm not immortals. I'm not a god or a beast. I'm just..me. Yuina. The fallen princess." She smiles brightly at him.

Slowly, Farrell also smiling back at her. Somehow, his heart feels at peace. Feels like a burden has been lifting up from his chest. He feels a bit lighter than before.

"You're not the fallen princess. You still a princess. To us, Zirconia citizen, we always admired you. Even though we never saw you. But the news about you..makes all men crazily wants to see you. Want to look at how beautiful the princess is..including me. You're just like the goddess of our kingdom. And now, seeing you in person makes me shrink and feels how useless I can be around you."

"Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe you're right. You and I..we just a person. We're not beast or immortals. We live on the same earth, in the same air. We cannot run to make a mistake, but we also can fix them back. That's what human do. Some times, we might at the top of the world. And some times, we also will go through at the bottom of our life. Like a wheel." Farrell smile at her for a moment before diverting his eyes to the moon.

"Yes, like a wheel. I already feel how to be on top of the world and also how to be at the bottom of my life too. I am currently making a step to move forward. That is why... to move forward...I need people whom I trust to help me, guide me to the right path. So my wheel will continue to move." Yuina continues.

"Farrell...I trust you. We can do it. You can do it. You just need to trust yourself and please..don't be afraid of me."

"Thanks...Princess.." Farrell turns to look at her.

"Please..just Yuina."

"Yuina."

…

After some time, Farrell takes his leave and went back to the house. That is when Hayden comes out from behind the tree. He was there all the times, hearing what they talk.

"Hey.." He took at sit beside Yuina.

Yuina a bit surprised to see Hayden suddenly there. She glances at him a bit nervous.

"H..Hey.."

"What are you staring at?" He asks.

"The moon."

"Mhm? Something on your mind?"

"I wonder..is there any possibilities that there's a life in there? Just like us here."

Chuckles, Hayden smiling looking at the moon.

"Probably. We never know, right?"

"What would they look like? I wonder."

"Maybe just like us. Or maybe a little bit different."

Yuina chuckles to hear that. They both then silent for a few minutes before Hayden start again.

"Yuina..I.."

"Hayden, you're not allowed to call me by my name. Stick with the 'princess' please." She said with a serious tone.

Lowered his gaze, he said. "Yes, princess. I apologize."

"Hmm. What did you want to say earlier?" She looks at him.

"Nothing. It's getting cold now. You should go back to the house. I need to be on guard tonight." Hayden takes off his jacket and put it on Yuina's shoulder.

"Okay. Make sure you also get your rest, Hayden." Yuina said softly and stand up after that. Ready to leave that place. She stops her pace after a few steps away from him.

"Hayden.."

"Hm?" Hayden looks at her, still sitting on the ground.

"Good night," Yuina said over her shoulder.

"Good night, princess."

After she leaves the place, Hayden runs his finger on his hair, sighing heavily.

"Why everyone, but not me?" He murmurs.

…

'I'm sorry Hayden. It's not because you're my knight that my father hires to protect me that I ask you to call me princess, but because.. because I want you to keep remember me as the princess. I want to always feel special in your heart. Everyone can call me by my name, but not you, Hayden. I want you to always call me princess. Even though everyone might be forgotten about me one day. I want you to always remember me. I know I might be selfish and unfair to you. But this is the only way I could remain in your heart as a princess. And not just a person with a name 'Yuina'. I'm sorry Hayden. I'm so selfish.'