[67] DOUBTS

" I love you Tracy and I'm willing to go to Texas with you if that's what you want".

"What of what you want, Aryan? Do you wanna go to Texas with me because you wanted to or because you felt debted to me, like everyone else for being Heinan". Ever since the incident at devachan, I haven't been able to get Alaky's words off my chest. Hainan's previous love was petty and ended miserably.

I sigh at the memory, They've been there since, making me have doubts about us. I'm quite aware this was what Alaky wanted. but what can I do when my head is already filled with scary thoughts and doubts.

I don't want my relationship with Aryan to crumble or even worse but In as much as I wanted to spend my entire life with him, I've come to realize that I am re-living Heinan's life, I've noticed changes in my body which might also result to...what I feared most. I shudder at the thought.

" I wanna go with you because you are my Tracy and I wanna go wherever my Tracy goes not because of the prophecy but because I love you with all my being trace, I'd love to go back to school and be with you plus, also to some refreshing moments with you at your favorite restaurant without having anything to worry about.". He winks at me. Who told him about the restaurant? I didn't, because we were never this close back in school!.

"Who told you about the restaurant?". I asked surprised how he knew.

"I had my ways"

"Have you been stalking me all those while?". I laugh and shove him.

" Haha...let say... I've been love stalking you".

"lies, we never spent much time together and you never liked me from day one. We were like enemies living in the same house". I say softly and watch as his smile fades. " Why were you mean to me all those times in school?". I ask softly.

" I was being foolish".

"Was it because of Maddie?". I ask finally asking that question. The question I've been dying to ask him ever since I started seeing him with her. Am I being selfish by pushing this far? But I needed to know if he would go back to Maddie once everything is over. "Will you go back to Maddie and forget about me once you reach Texas?". It is not certain when this war with Alaky would be over but I've already started to false future with Aryan

"Hell no, Trace. How could you ever think of that! After our moments together, after what we've been through together". He said and let's go of my hand.