State

I finished the lunch and laid back on the chair, watching the small forest from the garden. I have been doing this, more than I used before the incident of Asear Vajaras.

It has been a month and seven days since it happened, and I am still in the organization.

I have not done any mission and have been unfocused, lethargic. Not working on anything.

It seemed like I had lost interest in anything.

I wish Marina had been here, I miss her a lot. Her presence alone would have been enough to make me feel better. 

I had looked through the thousands of missions, but nothing seemed to interest me. Even those that would have been enticing to me a month ago, felt uninteresting.

This won't do, I have to go out. I have seen too many people fall in such a state and lose their drive. When they finally came out of the shell, years would have passed, and it would become too late.