Selfishly.....
I had fall for you.....
I always scared of how I felt ...
But, learning that I would lose you....
Watching you by the other side...
I don't like this....
I became upset...
And more upset that I had this kind of feelings....
Shouldn't I be happy for you two?
I'm glad....
I thought so....
But I'm jealous, again.....
Upset.....
You don't deserve this kind of attitude from me.....
But I can't help...
Its hurt a lot....
What am I supposed to do?
I want to do all my best to cherish you..
Because you're precious.
I never thought you meant this much and more.
Had I gone crazy?
I tried not to think but it's you all I can think.
Just a little attention could make me smile....
Just a little....
I hate knowing....
I hate to exist.....
I hate to know these feelings....
I can't help... I want to try my best too..... Show you how much I appreciate you, adore you .... Love you .... But why now?
I'm sorry.