You Loved Me Like A Habit, Not A Choice
Milo is a shy university student who overthinks everything and struggles to express his feelings. His life changes when he is assigned a new roommate, Keen.
Keen is calm, quiet, and emotionally distant. He does not talk much, but he shows care through small actions—reminding Milo to eat, helping him in daily life, and quietly looking after him in ways that feel almost unnoticeable, but deeply constant.
At first, they live together in awkward silence. But slowly, Milo begins to notice Keen’s kindness.
Without realizing it, he starts falling in love.
When Milo can no longer hold back his feelings, he confesses.
Keen accepts him—but not out of true understanding. He mistakes comfort, attachment, and fear of losing Milo for love, and chooses to keep him close even while not fully understanding what he feels.
Their fragile relationship continues, but it is already uncertain.
Everything changes after a mistake at a party. Drunk and careless, Keen kisses another girl, and Milo sees it. That moment shatters something inside Milo. Even though Keen apologizes and Milo forgives him, their relationship is never the same again.
As time passes, Keen begins to change.
He becomes more social, expands his circle of friends, flirts with girls, and slowly drifts into a lifestyle that confuses and hurts Milo. Worse, he begins sleeping around, acting like Milo is no longer the center of his world.
Milo is left behind—heartbroken, confused, and quietly suffering as he watches the person he loves slip further away.
Unable to watch him break down, Milo’s friends step in. Seeing how deeply hurt he is, they decide to set him up with Senior Bew, hoping he can help Milo heal and move on from Keen.
Now Milo is forced to live in a painful reality where the person he loves is still right in front of him—but no longer belongs to him.
And Keen, who once kept Milo closest to him, begins to feel something unfamiliar growing inside him as he watches Milo drift away.
Jealousy.
Regret.
And a painful realization he is far too late to understand.
In a story filled with heartbreak, emotional distance, jealousy, and slow-burning realization, two boys must face the consequences of love that was never clearly defined—
until it was already breaking apart.
Clarazy · LGBT+
Why you no English. WHY YOU NO ENGRISH. This novel does not speak it