Review Detail of chanduy in The Birth of a Villainess

i read about 40+ chapters but couldn't continue. i really tried hard to continue even till now. too much violence and FL is too insensitive. i understand given her previous life struggles she is like that. but i was expecting her to change gradually, but so far i don't see a sign that she will change a bit even after 100 more chapters. the pace is too slow. she said she doesn't mind marrying 60 plus old man, which pissed me, can't she respect herself as woman? in previous life she loved a married man and gone to palace to be his concubine, dedicated herself until she died. even after rebirth can't she have some respect for herself as woman.