LENA’S POINT OF VIEW
Guilt, I guess that was what I’m feeling right now. But not just that, I was feeling guilty for what I wasn’t feeling guilty about. I knew that I didn’t want to spend my entire life with Sasha and selling drugs for her stepbrother. I don’t feel bad for being with Maia because it’s what I want. I feel guilty for feeling burdened with this trivial shit when one of my men, a member of our drug cartel that keeps an eye on outside, died.
If I hadn’t told Egor that I’m out, he could still be alive, Nico could still be alive. He was my best man and was Dmitri’s best friend, I also feel guilty to Dmitri for taking his best friend from him. I’m not regretting for saving Maia from those dangerous people, I do what I need to do to save my fiancé and I’m fucked up. I feel guilty to Maia because I didn’t tell her the truth, I just don’t want Maia to feel she's not safe with me.