Prologue

I woke up from the sound of voices. "Carry, call your sister. It's time for breakfast and she still isn't ready. We're going to be late!" Pia heard her Mom shouted.

There were silence and before I could go back to sleep, I heard footsteps, followed by the constant knocking which was so loud it almost seem like the person want to break down the door.

I groaned and buried my head in the pillow. "Wake the f*ck up, Pia.Canisa.Presley!"

"Shut up Carry!"

"Mom!"

"You better get ready, Pia or you're going to be walking!"

I groaned and sat. I slapped my face to wake myself up. When Mom is like that, it will not be a joke. She's freaking serious!

I dragged my body to the bathroom. Once the water hit me, I shivered, forgetting to turn on the warm water. I immediately shifted it and immediately start washing

Today is finally the day I'm going back there again. To the place where the abused happened. Honestly, I'm not ready to face him yet. It still didn't sink in that they were going to meet again. My best friend. My childhood friend. Yet at the same time, my abuser.

Everything that happened there were almost a blur. It was like a nightmare that I wanted to erase completely out of my life.

I shook my head to get rid of the thoughts. As I slowly descended the stairs and saw my family, without me talking and eating. I paused for a moment and joined them.

"What took you so long?" Thea asked.

"Just showering, Mom." I answered scooping some egg fried rice.

Carry seeing me like this couldn't help but rolled her eyes. "That's what you get from staying up late."

Thea looked at me. Then Dad spoke. "What did we tell you about sleeping early, Pia especially in this type of occasion. You do know we have somewhere else to be rather than wait for you to wake up, right?"

I pursed my lips and nodded. "I know, Dad. I'm sorry. It won't happen again."

Larry did not reply and continued eating. The breakfast was quiet for me however, it was lively for the three. I was used to it and I almost did not care.

Everything was so quiet for me that time almost seemed faster. They were already travelling when Mom addressed me. "Its been 9 years since the incident and you're an adult now. I'm sure you understand what you need to do?"

Before I could reply. Carry, who seems to be listening immediately interjected. "You better not cause trouble with us, Pia and don't you dare get close to my boyfriend. Stay at the corner and do not dare to even get in our sights."

I silently rolled my eyes. 'Yeah, sure. It would be my pleasure your highness. B*tch. As if I would care about that as*h*le.' I said so but I knew I still cares, not necessarily about him but what happened from the past.

The travel towards countryside was uneventful. I didn't even noticed we arrived until I heard Carry shout with glee. "Harry!"

My body froze. Trying to calm down, I breathe in and out. I was still in the car and I didn't even saw him yet and I already reacted like this. I unconsciously let out a laugh that almost sounds like crying. 'Pathetic.'

"Pia! What are you still doing in the car? Get out right now and greet your aunt and uncle." I can hear my Mom's voice just outside.

My hands are shaking but I forced myself to grab the handle and prayed that our eyes don't meet.

I got outside and the fresh breeze of the air was refreshing that I almost forgot my physiological changes.

I tried to not shift my eyes around, focusing on the people in front. Mom, Dad, talking with Uncle Finn and Aunt Yen. And Him talking with Carry. He didn't even glance at me yet my body reacted, shaking so much that I almost stumbled with my steps.

The wind changes from caressing breeze into sharp knives stabbing my skins. I shivered, feeling like there were countless ant crawling my body. I feel myself cold and numb like I was trapped in the ice cold freezer. I clench my fists and slowly breaths. I sniff forcing myself not to cry. Although I just wanted to just ran away and cry like a child. My nails digging into my skin, I said to myself. 'No, I'm not a child anymore. How can I react like this. It's fine, he has a girlfriend, surely his lust were already satisfied. He won't touch me again, I won't let him touch me ever.'

With that, I greeted Auntie Yen and Uncle Finn. "Good morning, Auntie Yen, Uncle Finn. I hope you're still healthy and doing good." I said cheerfully, at least I tried to as I lift my lips into a smile which I bet looked so ugly.

I fix my eyeglasses as it slid down my nose. Then I heard Auntie Yen replied. "Yes of course, sweetie. Alive and kicking." She laughs. "How about you? I hope college life isn't so hard?"

"Oh, not at all, Auntie. It was very good." I replied honestly. Although busy, I liked it that way, it of course disables my mind into wandering all over and I won't have time to pity and feel disgusted about myself.

"That's very good." She smiled. She look at her side. "Did you remember Harry? Can you believe it? Carry and Harry are dating. I couldn't believe it at first. When Harry said he had a girlfriend and mentioned Carry's name I thought I misheard." She leaned forward to my ear. "I thought you two would have been a great couple." I froze and force myself again to lift my lips up into a smile. "Haha, how could that be, Auntie. We were friends."

"Yeah, what a pity." She whispered to herself yet I heard it very loud and clear. My smile is so stiff that anyone who saw me would think I'm a statue.

"Well, it's getting cold. Winter is almost coming. So let's get you comfortable inside, eh?" I heard Uncle Finn said and we followed.

Carry and that man was at the back and I tried to hurried my steps to match Auntie Yen. Despite that, I can still hear them talk.

"I really really missed you, Harry. You even forgot to text and call me this past months."

"Sorry, I've been busy. We were getting ready for winter and I had been stocking some food and supplies."

"Oh, that's totally fine. At least, I got to see you now, right?"

I tried to focus on some other things, looking at the beautiful sky and the surroundings. It was half successful. My mind were already wandering however my body still felt like I had been submerged in trash, cockroaches crawling all over my body, and mud sticking to me like glue. It was disgusting.

(End of Prologue)

Note: This story contains depiction of events related (mostly) to rape. It will be on flashback only. This was not the main plot so I will try not to focus heavily on this topic. Only some vague flashbacks, no promises.

Ps. No, the male lead is not Harry. It's Zephyr Vale. He will not be mentioned until 3-4 more chapters.