Story 3: Joy

Who am i? I am the older sister of Happiness, my name is joy and almost everybody knows me!

A lot of people say that they love me and i make people feel nice, but i'm not really sure about that.

i don't feel nice.. If i'm completely honest, i actually fwel quiet alone.. Everyone relies on me but i don't have anyone to rely on.

Why do people think that just because my name is joy, that i only feel joyful? Why do people EXPECT me to make them happy? Have people ever thought of what i've felt?

I am everything to them, but they are nothing to me, so why do i keep them around?

In a full room of people, i still feel alone..

My bestfriends name is Depression, his always sad and isolates himself from everyone, for some reason i can relate with him. Thats mainly why we are friends, because i can understand his feelings and he understands mine.

I don't feel happy, loved or even cared for, i'm just here..Living but not really living..

"Hey happy!" Depression says as he enters the room, i look around to look for my sister but she's not here. So why is he saying Happy?

Wait.. Is he talking to me? Why is he calling me happy?

"What? My name is joy..?" Im so confused, is he talking to me or what?

"No.. your name is happy, ever since you were born your name has been Happy.." He explained with a tilt of his head.

I continue with my day, but it's all weird, people keep calling me Happy.

It doesn't matter, i still get treated the same. I feel like im suffocating in my skin, i hate this feeling. I don't like myself still, so not many things have changed.

I'll just sleep, maybe when i wake up everything will be the same.

"Morning Sad, how are you feeling today?" My mother said to me in a softy.

I look at her weirdly, "My name is Joy, not Happy or Sad!" I shouted at her, yet she only looked at me in a confused way. She then left me alone for the rest of the day, it was so confusing, but it felt nice.

Being left alone for once, being myself for one time. But i still feel lost, i don't know what's happening, is this all a dream? Am i dreaming right now?

I pinch myself just to make sure, but nothing happens. I don't wake up.

I just continue with my day, nothing could possibly be worst.

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Why isn't anyone talking to me? Do they not like me anymore? Am i now irrelevent to them?

Good.

"Hi Depression!", Depression only gives me a weird look, then he walks away.

What? Why isn't Depression replying to me? Does he not like me either?

Am i annoying to them?

Wait.. I dont like this! I dont like being alone.. what did i do wrong?

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"Morning Lost.. are you feeling okay?" My mother said to me the next morning.

Wait? Lost? Is that my new name?

Why do i feel weirdly connected with it? Am i actually Lost?

Is this who i'm meant to be?..

"I'm okay mum, nothing to worry about", I say in response, i gave her a small smile.

Its okay mum, i'll eventually find my true path.. But right now, I am Lost.

And thats okay.