April 9 2023

This feels like cheating because it's only 3 in the morning. As in it should be April 8.

Do you ever wake up thinking you need more sleep, so you stay in bed more. You are the type of people who don't like to sleep aren't you.

Like taking showers as we were young. We don't want to but as we get warmer, we want to stay in more. You develop that comfort zone in your space you feel it breaching privacy to leave it.

You look at the ceiling in your bed and can't avoid thinking do I get out of bed today or not. You stopped caring what classes you have tomorrow, or if your parents will ever wake you up. You woke up too early for it to matter, or too late.

The pillow your head is on is the first thing you feel lifting this burden. All these thoughts and ideas you think of while trying to get back to sleep are the only things weighting on you.

Nothing seems to lift up that weight just yet.

You can hear the birds outside doing their noise while you are overthinking every aspect of the day you'll have.

Nothing is stopping you from doing anything except you.

You can never be good at everything nor bad at everything.

You can never succeed at everything nor fail at everything.

You can never learn everything not forget everything.

if you want to share your thoughts with me and the community, i just created a new discord server.

https://discord.gg/eqyvCp3pDK

you can also just enter the random letters after .gg and it will work the same