Dirty secrets ~

Alyssa 's POV

I'm  Alyssa, I've been on my own since the very day my father died in a plane crash. My life has been really complicated and a  lot of betrayals. My dad died in a plane crash, the one that happened in Chicago 2 years ago. He was a well-known pilot popularly known as Jackson Jace. Yeah, you know him right? My mother had it the worst, her grief led to my daily abuse.

Her consumption of alcohol and Nicotine had complete control over her body,  at times it was as if I wasn't looking at my mother but a monster.  Since then I knew I had an onerous responsibility. 

Our daily conversation would result in hitting me on my face. I really tried with her but her words always ignite my anger and my anger issues always stood in the way of my respect causing me to retaliate. We will both scream at each other and say some hurtful words just to spite each other. Her words always hit differently each time she accuse me of killing my own father.

The school was where most of my joy was derived from. Since writing and listening to my teachers was the definition of fun. I never had a friend of my own cause I felt insecure. Although, I see no reason why I should keep friends cause I've seen some incidents where friends betray each other.

My mum spends most of the money that was willed to her upon her husband's death lavishly. I took matters in my hands by seeking job opportunity but all was to no avail due to my tender age. I was only 16 but I knew I was capable of a job and I was determined to find a job that will accept me the way I am

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"Wake up you this spoilt brat!" My mum spoke to me harshly.

"What again!" I said sarcastically.

"Will u get your ass up! and get ready for school!" she said with a pissed voice

"When did u start caring about me?do you even care at all? and now you are saying nasty things to me. I don't remember when last you woke me up to go to school. I do my things myself bitch!" I said with a shrug

She gave me a hot slap, leaving her five fingers print on my right cheek. Yeah she always those things like this just to see me really hurts. I rubbed my cheeks as I got stung by the pain.

"Get the hell out of my room, bitch!"

"Are u asking me to get the fuck! out of your room?"

" tell me, what does it look like to you?"

"This is my husband's house you this bastard!" she said angrily

"You should have told your dead husband! to pull out before he spilled the seed into you!" I said with disgust

Her face was red as a tomato. The deliberate cruelty of my words cut her like a knife. That is how we fight every morning just to make a point. She is not a mother she is a bitch! and a pain in the ass.

I went angrily into my room to prepare myself for school. It wasn't like every other morning that everything would have been ready but I must have slept off without getting everything in order. I had to go through my personal calendar more like my timetable for school, containing what I'm having in class and then,I walked myself into the bathroom to my bathroom. When I was done in the bathroom, I came out to dry up and put on my regular hoodie and a ripped jeans. I put on my red lipgloss and smirked my lips together .

I went into the kitchen to make some sandwich before leaving. My mum came into the kitchen when I was about leaving with a blunt hanged between her lips. I was irritated by her presence but I wasn't ready for her to spoil my mood. She took a glass cup and left immediately.

"Hey! Alyssa" Becky waved at me as she walked towards me.

I waited for her patiently but I start to lose my patience when she stopped by to speak to one of her friends. She thought I had all the time in the world. She must be in her dreams if she thinks I will fucking waste my time waiting for her while I have important things to do. I walked away immediately and I guess she had been looking for me.

I went straight to my locker to pick my books for math class aka Mr sleep. I tend to sleep a lot when it comes to math because I do a lot of solving which helps a lot and I sleep in most of the classes cause I study ahead of the class. I'm the school nerd but a naughty one at that.

During math period,the teacher decided to give us a quick test based on the topic. One of the students complained and the teacher giving us a test on a topic we don't even understand. He was speaking for everyone not for himself cause left to me I have no problem doing the test. Again, another student student to agree with the student.

Now, I have to listen to the teacher explaining the equations from the beginning to the end. I just to leave the boring class and go for next class. Few minutes later, the school bell rang and all the students rushed out of the class fir their next class. I went to my PE class.The class was boring as hell and I couldn't even participate in the question and answer period.

After school, I went to my secret place where I have peace of mind without that wasted bitch being around. On my way there, I stopped at the ice scream shop to get my favorite vanilla ice cream before going to the place where I can finally relax myself.