CHAPTER ONE

AT SEVEN FIFTHY SIX in the evening Cessy is drinking a hot chocolate coffee when her chest suddenly ached, and she felt so sad.

𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡?

And she've come to the point of questioning herself whys and whats.

She opened her facebook account and browse her active friends list to see if who is online that she can talk, then she saw two people who are both close to her. But despite of the closeness she has for the two, she still hesitates to talk to them about her being misserable about herself complications.

She sighed. And stared at nowhere, let herself drowned with the thoughts and shed a tear for herself that she cannot control anymore.

𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠?

She then took another sip of coffee and starts to remember everything that can be the reason why she became complicated.

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠...

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑛𝑒𝑟...

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝐼𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑑𝑒? 𝑂𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ 𝑎𝑚𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒?

She took a deep breathe and finish her coffee then just brag herself down her bed and watched the ceiling fan work on its own to provide enough wind for her.

It's already eight fourthy in the evening where loneliness started to dig deeper on her chest and thoughts drowned her more.

𝑊ℎ𝑦 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑐𝑟𝑦?

She said to herself wiping off her tears with her hello kitty blanket.

𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑔𝑜? 𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ. Sobbing in pain that pushed her to fall asleep.

𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐔𝐄𝐃.