Sleepy

- ATEEZ - {MinJoong}

Hongjoong's POV

- - pt.1 - -

every day it's the same. Wake up at 4:30 a.m., shower, eat rice with seaweed chips, then make breakfast for the others only. It's normal. I cook with Yunho, but it's only so he can lecture me about not getting enough. On those days Yeosang comes in cuz when Yeosang doesn't see his roommate he knows Yunho is with me. Every time Yunho shuts up it's only when Yeosang joins us to cook with us always placing a sweet morning smile on his face.

"Hongjoong go to bed." Is hoarse voice Kohl's out across the room. I love his hair, smile, laugh, eyes, anything about him. He's perfect.

"I can't sleep..." I hear a soft chuckle fly through the air before I hear his gentle voice again.

"I can tell." I hear his bed Creek followed by soft footsteps finding their way towards me. My bed dips and even through the thick darkness, I could see his reassuring smile.

"Let's go to bed now." he laid down hugging me into his chest. His breathing steady and soothing. His heart beating slow, but full of life. He was warm, comfortable. I wanted this moment to last a lifetime.

"Thanks, Mingi."

"Just go to bed." one last angelic chuckle before I even realize I drifted into a water-like state of dreams and love. Something I want her to feel forever.

- - pt.2 - -

cold, alone, back to normal. Last night was perfect, but of course, he was gone... I felt like crying but held it back to grab my phone. 626 am... Today's Thursday. Shit, we have practice today and I'm late. What if the others didn't wake up?! How did I sleep through my alarm?

"Guys! Guys, we have pra-" I ran out of the room only to see everyone chilling on the couch. they brought me in complete shock. I hear some judgmental Snickers, but I ignore them. I was scanning the room to see if I could find Yunho. Sitting at the end of the couch on San set Yunho who stared at me.

"PDnim canceled saying the instructors and usual staff fell ill." Seonghwa said with an eyebrow lifted. I don't remember-

"He canceled yesterday Hongjoong." Wooyoung read my face swell. I slept my fingers through my newly Tangled morning here. Stress is the only word allowed in my vocabulary at times like these.

"I'm sorry, so sorry I forgot." I rub my temples. When I look up at the members or dropped my head. Worry, disappointment, and loving stairs from all seven people attack my gaze like knives.

"Hongjoong?"

"Y-yes?" Dammit, I stammered. They know I try and carry things on my own. They sometimes hear me cry when I'm overwhelmed, but they usually ignore it.

"How about we go out today?" My heart began to pound. Mingi's words hit me. He stood beside Yunho and began to stroke his hair only to put that same negative thought back in my head.

...he will never be mine...

Those words ring in my ears at a constant rate.

"We can't, the staff, PDni-"

"Hongjoong chill! we don't ever do anything because of work. Plus PDnim doesn't care as long as we get back safe!" San. innocent, sweet, cute, and lovable in every way, but has a sense of danger. He yells only when he really cares, so I know to just ignore the yelling and listen.

"Fine let's go!" I deal with a smile causing everyone to cheer and excitement and tuck me in a hug.

- - pt.3 - -

he told me he loved me for the first time in 6 months. My heart did cartwheels when I heard it. I remember each word.

"Hongjoong just promise me you'll stay healthy, cuz I really do love you."

I loved those words from anybody, but him... My body popped off the word euphoria like a firework.

- - pt.4 - -

4 days of only one hour of sleep each. We swap dorm rooms the day we went out, so now... I share a room with Yeosang and Wooyoung. No more Mingi... I miss him.

"Hongjoong your bags..." Yunho pointed out with a worried look, I just smile.

"I just didn't sleep well last night." The practice room went completely silent and everyone stared then San stepped up with Wooyoung.

"4 days... You haven't slept well. It started when we moved." Wooyoung spoke with certainty and San just looked at me with harsh disappointment.

"Do you hate what we started together? Are you ashamed of the name ATEEZ? Do you hate us?" Jungho popped off making my heart almost shatter.

"God no! I just-I've been in that room since we moved here, it's weird... I'll get used to it." I tried to smile with reassurance but everyone pouts.

"Hongjoong do you like anyone?" San spoke with his head cocked to the side and his eyes were staring into my soul, searching.

"N-no...why?" I stammered again... Damn. everyone was looking at me and curiosity, but not him... His eyes were full of love, understanding, and begging. It was almost like he knew or he really wanted to know.

"I don't know just wondering." I choke on my spit when San smirked and shrugged his shoulders, pushing away the whole thing. He's never done tha-

"Is it Mingi?" San points at me accusingly but smiles innocently. My heart jumps out of my chest. How did he know?

"No!" My cheeks heat up and I stomp. I didn't want them to know. It just got me so mad. Even the thought of it.

"O-ok damn..." San looks kind of fearful after that, but I just push it off. I look at Mingi and only see one thing.

~hurt~

- - pt.5 - -

"Hongjoong I can't sleep." his voice soft and sweet. I sit up and look at him.

"Come on." I stand up and grab a blanket slowly leading him to the living room.

"Hongjoong?" I just him as I approached the couch, I sit down and await his presence beside me. He sits down and I smiled pulling him into a hug. With him, in my arms, I pull us down and momentarily let go to pull covers over us.

"Hongjoong?"

"Yes?" sleep started to take its hold on me, but I fight it so I could listen and remember well.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you..." I felt sorry, I didn't mean to...

"No it's not that you hurt me, you did nothing wrong really. It's just I find it a hassle to say that I love you and-" I stopped there. The shock I felt when I heard myself slide it.

"You love me?" The question made me want to do two things. Either die or say yes. But I never answered in time I just feel him shuffle in my arms a bit.

"I'm glad I didn't hurt you... My brother... I would have regretted that" I smile as tears welled up in my eyes.

"Y-yeah." he finally was asleep and I carefully slip my way to the bathroom. I cry and cry. I hated doing it, but I couldn't help it.

~he won't be mine he sees me as a brother~

- - pt.6 - -

Mingi's words rang in my head for two weeks ever since he slipped them. I-

"Hongjoong?" San grabbed my sweatshirt sleeve with puppy eyes.

"Yes?" He smiled and jumped a bit.

"Let's go out to eat lunch, I have to talk to you anyway." Sane smiled and I just return one.

"Sure." We walked to a small little marinated crab restaurant. food soon served smile on mine and San's face, but soon San's face went straight.

"Hongjoong, I know you like Mingi." Those words cause me to freeze. dammit.

"I really don-"

"You've told me." That's when I was a complete statue. I don't remember. Now it's where I will say 'nor do I want to.'

"When?"

"When? that day we snuck alcohol and young got drunk. You're really chatty too." He giggled with a soft understanding smile. I still hated this.

"I'll help you if you quit looking at me like an enemy just because I know." He read me correctly once again.

"Fine." I smiled and now I do whatever San says.

~Oh good, I'm in deep shit now.~

- - pt.7 - -

I walk to the living room. It's lively with laughter and smiles from each member. San looked at me and smiled only to see me return one. This was it, a normal day. Especially days off.

"Hey Hongjoong, how about you and Mingi go out and get some lunch?" Seonghwa said with an innocent smile. I shoot San a death glare, but he gave me a smile showing that no one else knows. I have to trust him. I sigh a bit and signal that I would and Mingi jumps up.

"Can we just order?" I ask and San sighs with Wooyung.

"No, can you please go get fried chicken though?" Wooyoung says and I smile though I wanted to slap him.

"Yeah, ok fine," I say as me and Mingi head out the door.

- - pt.8 - -

Mingi was driving and of course, I was on my phone cause San texted me a wink and I was about to murder him.

"H-Hongjoong?" Mingi's voice asked scarcely snapping my head to him and ignoring San.

"Yeah?" I as with a sweet smile, but his face was frozen in a focused yet wandering state.

"I like you." and with that, I completely stop breathing. was he serious?

"W-what?"

"Hongjooong, I like you and if you like me too, please, be my boyfriend?" A traffic light stopped at red and as soon as the car took a complete stop he looked at me what genuine feeling.

"I-hold on...." I had texted San and asked him why Mingi asked me this. He just simply said Mingi has liked me for a while and Mingi told him a while back before I had. So I'm guessing when San found out about my feelings...he set Mingi on a fearful turn to ask me out.

"Mingi?"

"Y-yeah?"

"I will be your boyfriend." I smile and his face became bright.

~The love of my life is now mine.~

- - pt.9 - -

Me and Mingi came home and San just looked proud. We all ate well and then it was time for bed. Mingi shares a room with San and since San knows he helped me sneak In so me and Mingi could sleep together.

"Mingi, I'm sleepy."

"Don't say sleepy you sound five, but good night baby." He lightly places a kiss on my head. As I drift to sleep I scoot closer to him.

~I loved him.~

-Mayji

[Authors Note]

I don't originally ship these two either but their height difference is friggin adorable so that's why I did this...