Happiness

I never felt this kind of happiness

Unless I order online and unbox those deliveries I have

This was the escape I always do

These are the time I feel something real

I had never felt loved nor cared

They were just there maybe because they are obliged to

They have this responsibility to bear a child to prosper

To have the kind of fortune they might not have gotten when they were younger

It was all passed down on the children they have

It was somehow tiring but they don't even noticed it

They never ask them if they could still continue what they want for them

They just see the time when their children is having their happy time on

Phones and such

We sometimes feel jealous

Whose parents are loving and caring

As if their children is their precious gems

Making them feel safe, loved and cared

But not to the point that they are being babied nor having them be dependent on their parents.

It's something that we wish for

It's something that we want to have and had felt

But remember not to question the One's who is above

It's never His decision to make you feel like that

It may be our misfortune

But maybe it's His way to make us be better

But sometimes, it's just too much to take

And sometimes, we just want to end it.