His Past - 2

Part 2

Today is the way for which I, literally, waited my whole life.

Today I am gonna confess to her.

Today I am gonna let the whole world know, who Advika, belong to. Me.

I have been making plans for this day for a long time now. I want this to be perfect day for us, me and my precious.

Today is the last day of her school. I waited for her to complete her high school first so that it will be legal to have a boyfriend. Not like I care. If I have my ways,I would have made her my girlfriend even before we were born.

Don't you guys think, I am getting f**king cheesy here.

Even if I am, I don't care. I will be anything for my Advika.

I told her few days ago to meet me in my house, at evening. I was planning for a small party for us. Not that there would be anyone there except us .

My parents are leaving for some thread ceremony at afternoon and possibly not gonna return till midnight. That would be enough time for me.

I already bought every required things for decoration, sh*ts like balloons, colourful ribbons or papers. All the sh*ts girl likes.

But most importantly, a ring.

First I am planning to propose her. Then after she agree, I want to do all those lovey-dovey sh*ts that happen in movies, she likes to do. Then after few years, when I will have my own business, when I will be capable enough to take care if my wife, I will marry Advika.

They say, in these cases, you ought to be nervous. But surprisingly I am not.

Maybe because those people afraid what would be the answer of the other person.

I am not afraid. Because she will say yes or I will make her say that. Either way she is gonna be mine. I am not gonna give her a choice. Nope.

With all these planning in my mind, I don't know why the fuck was I sitting in the canteen with all these ba***rds what i call friends. These are all man-wh***s who always think with their d**ks. I never told them about Advika, as I know once they will be in contact with her,they might ruin her innocence. I have much faith on that. They just know about my Advika as "the neighbour" and nothing else.

And then comes biggest bitch of the century wrapping her disgusting self on one of my friend,ROHIT. Her flavour of month. Not that boys mind being with her as they just use her for one thing. Once they get it,either they leave or Kendra find someone else for fun.

She untangles herself from him and came to me,what she thinks, seductively. But for me it's like a chicken walking without her head. That much she repulse me. Doesn't she has any respect for herself. I don't care as long as she won't be a problem in my way to my precious.

Just then,these bunch of ba***rds started saying something about Advika. My posture became stiff but still I choice to answer then with a bored tone like I am not interested but in reality its far from that.

One time in all these talk,I was planning to bash their faces and pathetic comments on the same canteen table. But I chose not to as I didn't want them to have any suspensions about my feelings. These boys usually share some of their girls or make bet to woo other girlfriends. I don't want my Advika in any danger because of my pathetic action. Never ever I will pull her in all these mess.

So I started saying s**ts about her from outside but inside my tongue was burning to even use those words and even refer this witch better than my precious. As if. But I had to do that to convince the bunch of idiots.. Once I completed my "speech" about Advika, they somehow seem disappointed. Why ?

Then my life's biggest disaster happen when we heard a commotion behind us and I turned to contact my eye with the familiar eyes, which I wish to saw every day and night. At first I was in shock to figure out what's happening.

But then I saw it.

Her eyes.

Tears were flowing like rain from her eyes passing through her cheeks , dripping through her chin.

Did she...? Did she heard what I said ? No No. Right ?. She didn't, right ?.

As much as I wanted to convince myself that I was not the reason being her tears but the reality is far from that.

No No. This is all because of me. I should go to her,hold her and tell her that all these bullshits were wrong. I love her. But I didn't. Its like, my feet were rooted to the same place. I couldn't move afraid if I will touch her,she will break in pieces. But isn't her heart is in pieces right now,because of me.

I could feel her pain through her eyes how betrayed she was feeling right now. My vision started becoming blur and I know her pain is gonna flow through my eyes too.

She started seeing all my "friends" whose head hung low. But she was not making eye contact with me. Then her eyes roam to my hands. Why ?

Just then I noticed that vicious snake,Kendra has her hands wrapped around me and she was smirking towards my Advita. This bitch.

With all the things,I didn't even notice how thus bitch touched me. . Now I know why she was looking at my hands.

I closed my eye and let my tears fall freely. Is it just me or this whole universe is digging a lava for me.

I am disgusted on myself not because she heard but to say all those vile things in the first place.

Then she dus what she us always good at. She ran. She ran from there,from canteen, from me. What if she leave...? No. I can't let that happen. She can beat me, slap me, anything but not away from me. No. Not my baby.

I roughly pushed Kendra who fall on the floor on her butt. And ran to my life. To my precious.

Its late. She already left.

I don't know what to do. I am afraid of what to come. With that my knees became weak and I fall on that concrete floor and started weeping like a child. My friends came outside and crouched next to me, saying something, explaining how it was plan. So that they could make me confess about my feeling. How they always knew my feeling and just wanted me to accept it. But I didn't paid attention to these thing . These are all bullshits now.

I started calling her again and again. But she never picked up. Why would she ? Why would she ever pick up my call ? But then she did picked up after my almost 26 calls. I was prepared to say sorry or anything to keep her with me. Absolutely anything. But without giving me a chance to speak, she started speaking and trust me all those words were like each arrow piercing through me.

"It was a mistake. You were the biggest mistake of my life. Good bye Mr. Singhania"

Mistake.

I was a mistake.

My love was a mistake for her.

What have I done ?

What have I done...?

And with that I lost my first girl, my first love, My precious.