I'll be counting on you.

Without any hesitance, Hua Tianshu firmly continued, "Except for that, I would not be telling him anything else because I do not want him to live in regret as you did. I do not wish to see him think of a 'what if'. The things in the past cannot be changed and just because you care for him does not mean you did not abandon him. It would be better for him to remain oblivious to the regrets that haunt you even after death. I will not tell him that you sacrificed yourself out of guilt for what happened 'cause if I do that, he would blame himself for your death as well and that is not something that he should have to live with." 

"Shen Fang, you are a pitiful person, but you are also an asshole who abandoned his family. The lover you turned away, the child you abandoned, and the grandson you gave away, I'm sure they will never forgive you nor understand your decision and that is the cruel fate that you deserve."