ASHAMED

CHAPTER NINETY ONE

Biting his lip, Feifei glared daggers at Yuan.

He twitch his ass, squeezing the rubber cock tight.

Fantasizing it was Yuan's neck he was strangling instead of the cock replica.

Yuan chuckled.

Yuan kissed Feifei on the cheeks and bit his earlobe.

"Keep that plugged in. Or else...."

Feifei shivered.

"Get cleaned up." Yuan whispered.

Yuan kissed Feifei on top of his head and left.

Feifei closed his eyes. He placed his fingers at the base of the toy cock.

He wants to take it out and hurl it away.

How could he possibly eat thinking about this thing deep inside his ass?

Could he even walk straight?

His heart is pounding so loud.

He has to admit.

He feels thrilled.

But.

He feels ashamed. He feels decadent.

He can be so tough and strong when it comes to other people.

He cannot tolerated even a speck of dust in his eyes.

But when it comes to Yuan...

He feels weak and helpless.

Feifei slumped down in bed.

And stared hard at the ceiling.

After a moment of hesitation, Feifei summoned all his nerves, tighten his hands into fists.

Then he put back his underpants with the rubber cock secured in his ass.

He feels good. Everything felt right.

But what they are doing makes him feel...shameful.

-----------------------------------------

When Yuan came out from the bedroom, the smile in his face was gone in a flash.

It was replaced by a chilling and malevolent sneer. His body suddenly unleashed his savage and cruel nature.

He walked to the study room and stood infront of the unlit fireplace.

The room is very solemn and grim. From the ceilings to the walls down to the carpet, everything is pure black.

Dark and Dismal.

"Speak." Yuan softly ordered, his voice chilly with the sharpness of steel.

"Sire."

A gutteral voice answered. The voice is harsh and unpleasant.

"Shilu sent word. Dark Magic. Probe."

Yuan's body instantaneously blasted a great wave of extreme destructive pressure.

Before it was forcefully suppressed in a blink.

CLATTER!

SMASH!

Yuan's sudden eruption, though it was in a blink, was like a raging storm wreaking damage and chaos in the study!

The cabinets, chairs, tables exploded!

Pieces were scattered all over. Cluttered everywhere!

The windows, cups, wine bottles were smashed!

Shattered and splintered into a million tiny pieces.

In the darkness, an obscure shadow flickered in a split second.

Blaargh!

Then stabilized.

Yuan's shadow guard wasn't able to endure the pressure and retched dark blood.

Due to Yuan's overwhelming power that swept the entire room, the study was turned upside down.

Nothing was spared nor left unharmed.

Except the culprit.

Yuan closed his eyes tight, took a deep breath and gritted his teeth.

"Arrange a carriage." Yuan asked softly but a trace of viciousness can be heard.

"As you command."

Then a box floated towards Yuan from the shadow.

Yuan glanced at the box.

Then he turned towards the door.

The box floated following Yuan as he leisurely walked towards his bedroom.

When he arrived at the door, he just stood there in a trance.

The box was left levitating behind him.

Yuan arched his head back as he tightly closed his eyes.

Dark Magic.

He wants to go to Never Ever himself and check.

Then Yuan blankly stared at the door. His eyes penetrating through barriers and walls.

He would have to leave soon.

Yuan took a deep breath and expelled the foul air from his body.

He turned around and plucked the hovering box from the air and opened the bedroom door.

-----------------------------------------

Upon entering, the first thing Yuan saw was Feifei standing at the opened windows.

Absent mindedly staring at the skies.

Yuan placed the box on the bed.

He slowly walked towards Feifei, hugged his waist and pulled him back to his chest.

Feifei stiffened for a moment then relaxed his body.

Feifei bit his lips in shame. He can feel the rubber toy pressing on the insides of his ass.

Yuan can feel Feifei's turbulent emotions.

He looked at the skies in silence. Giving him his space.

After a long moment, he kissed the top of Feifei's head.

"Come." Yuan turned Feifei and held Feifei's hand in his.

He lightly dragged Feifei towards the bed and gave him the box.

"This is your dress. Wear it for me tonight." Yuan whispered in his ear.

Feifei swallowed hard.

But he still did not accept the box from Yuan.

Yuan just patiently stood there and waited for Feifei to make a move.

When Feifei took the box, he opened it.

And he gasped in surprise!

A fiery red gown appeared in his eyes.

The long gown is so beautiful, soft and flowing.

A gorgeous loose gown made of exquisite silk.

The straps are to be tied around the neck.

The front is covered with the shoulders bare.

But.

It is an open back dress that bares the entire back, down to the lower hips.

Feifei was stunned for a moment before he looked at Yuan.

Yuan smiled at him.

"Wear it for me?"

Feifei bit his lips.

Then with great hesitation, he nodded.

-----------------------------------------

When Feifei appeared with the red dress on, the sight was so magnificently stunning!

When Feifei walked towards Yuan, he looks like a goddess who descended from the heavens.

Feifei's beauty is really incomparably out of this world.

Yuan was speechless.

Feifei literally took his breath away!

He can't take his eyes away from the ravishing beauty in front of him.

But.

When Yuan looked closely at Feifei's face, he felt choked.

Yuan stared hard at Feifei in silence.

After a long silence, Yuan sat down at the edge of the bed.

He feels suffocated.

Yuan looked at Feifei and quietly held out his hand.

When Feifei instantly placed his hand in his, Yuan was slightly relieved.

"Let's talk first." Yuan held Feifei's hand and lightly pulled Feifei towards him.

He placed Feifei on his lap and wrapped his arms around Feifei's waist.

"Baby, look at me." Yuan whispered softly.

Feifei looked up at Yuan with a flushed face. His face is so red that blood can be squeezed out.

Yuan stared straight at Feifei's flighty eyes. Feifei is obviously embarrassed and ashamed.

"Look at me." Yuan ordered with harsh coldness.

Feifei squirmed in Yuan's lap but can't really seem to look at Yuan in the eyes.

Feifei is biting his lips and tears are flooding in his eyes. One trigger, and the dam would burst.

Yuan sighed.

He held Feifei's waist tighter and kissed Feifei's forehead.

Yuan sighed again.

Yuan cupped Feifei's face in his hands and moved his face closer to Feifei's face.

Only a breath separated them.

"Baby, I'm sorry I make you feel what you feel right now. But I'm not sorry for what we did. Right now you must feel ashamed of yourself, ashamed of what we did. I'm sorry I make you feel that way. Forgive me." Yuan wholeheartedly apologized.

He kissed Feifei's lips with a light touch. Grazing their lips together.

Feifei was biting his lips hard.

He is desperately fighting the urge to wail and cry.

"I'm sorry, baby. Forgive me, please?" Yuan's voice is hoarse and is also trying to control his emotions.

"What we have, this relationship, its empty and worthless if you can't communicate your true feelings without feeling ashamed."

Yuan tightened his hold on Feifei's face. When Feifei finally looked straight into his eyes, Yuan smiled sincerely and whispered.

"Baby, to me YOU ARE PERFECT."

"You are the most beautiful, most enchanting person in my mind. In my heart. The way I love you. The way you love me. The crazy things we do. Baby, there is no shame in loving. There is no shame in loving intensely and passionately."

Feifei's tears begins to fall down in torrents. Yuan wiped the tears with his kisses.

"I treasure every single moment we love each other. And I know, you also love the crazy things we do. Baby, not everyone is purely good. Everyone has its own darkness. You have to learn to accept your darkness. Its part of who you are. Accept your true, authentic self without shame. Embrace what you like. The wildness, the uninhibited passion, the maddening sex. Fei, hiding what you really want is in itself a form of shame."

"Clear your mind. Don't take into account what others would think. This has nothing to do with them. This is about you and me. Its about us and our own sacred space."

Yuan reverently kissed Feifei's forehead. His lips stayed there for a long moment.

Then he pressed their foreheads together.

"Baby, believe in me. I will be your anchor. I will forever keep you safe. I just need you to take my hand and trust me. Please...have enough courage to trust me."

"Yuan...."

And the dam broke.

Feifei burst out crying in Yuan's chest.