Endless 191

How far can you push yourself. I don't know the answer but I know one thing. I'm doing the best I can to survive and I don't think I will be able to do much beyond this. It is easy for me to give up and die at this point. But I can't do it. I simply can't. It is not because I have a will to live. It is only because I can't let myself die. I can't leave Lucien alone in that awful island. It will kill him. There is none in this world who would take the pain of crossing an ocean to a God forsaken island to find him save me. I know my friends said they would. But I don't think do there is enough on their plate as it is.