Finding way back 166

I have found my father again and lost him again. It hurts just the same if not more to lose your parent. Why couldn't I save him? Why is it so tough for me to step up when my parents need me? I didn't do anything when my mother was murdered right before my eyes. But back then I was a child. But what is my excuse now? I was an adult now and trained by Lycan's. But still I have managed to fail my father again. I couldn't kill Shane a d liberate them that is why my father stayed. He said these peo where his men. He couldn't leave them alone with a tyrant for leader. I don't know how he will manage. I worry that he will go back to getting controlled by Shane.