Funeral 148

I was already broken down now Lucien is leaving me. I wanted to go after him desperately but something is stopping me. It is my duties and responsibilities. If I go with him I would be shirking my responsibility towards my people, mother and friends. They all want to be so things. I don't know if I will be ever capable of doing things my friends imagine me doing. But I don't have any other choice. I can't leave them at the drop of a hat and go. No matter how much I loved Lucien. If it had been any other day I would have considered going. But today is very important to me. Today is the day of funeral of my best friend Becca.