I would miss him this way

Sheng Li squeezed his eyes tightly. The tears, which stopped for a while, started flowing again. "Why am I even blaming him? It was my fault. I was overconfident, and it happened. I am not even worthy of his friendship," Sheng Li said while sobbing. 

Ying Lili also started crying. She was also devastated as she was not able to see her friend for the last time. 

"I failed Lili as a friend. I deserve to be hated by the people. Now, I understand why I got curses from people. I do not know how am I going to live with this burden? He stopped breathing right in front of me, and like a stupid fool, I did not do anything," Sheng Li blamed himself. 

Ying Lili stepped forward and back hugged him. "You do not deserve anyone's hate. I heard his last words. He said he is in peace now," Ying Lili stated and tightly wrapped her arms around him, giving him warmth; making him realize that he was not alone.