Soldier (II)

*JASON POV*

We couldn't do anything except seeing each other's faces when we heard the captain's honest reaction to the situation. Even though I had a calm front, I could feel the reluctance to continue surging inside me. 

Being a soldier in my mid-thirties, I couldn't still enjoy my life as much as regular people would have. Being forever single, without a partner for almost my entire life was a reason. My idea of retiring and enjoying the rest of my life in peace with a loved one was holding me back. 

But, remembering the gruesome training I had to go through to join the army and serve the country was holding me back from saying what I was really feeling. Being attacked by two opposite views, I remained silent.