MBHH 38

Chapter 38

Part 38

Day twenty-nine 3

After dinner we decided to watch TV here in our living room. Kevin is still here because mom has been pond of his presence.

"Its already 9 are you not going to leave now?"

"Don't you want me here baby" he said in a husky way while whispering it on my ear that gave me goosebumps.

"The heck" I got outburst when I can't handle it on my own.

"Honey what's wrong?" I look at my mom giving me a confused look.

"A-ahm ehem.. I'm fine mom" and look at kevin while sitting next to me and giving me a smirk on his face. This damn handsome.

"Tss." I just continue on watching because I don't want to feel the cringe that I felt earlier arrgh.

Hour passed and mom was already asleep in her room and this guy do finish the movie before going home.

I walk him out of the gate.

"I'll see you baby" he said then to my surprise he kiss me on my lips. My eyes got big because of the shock and my lips got parted that leads him to enter his tongue.

DAMN WHY AM I FEELING HOT?.

While kissing me I just stood still when he did encircle his arm onto my waist and pinned me close to his broad chest. Damn it.

Until I feel that I'm kissing him back the way we wanted.

I encircle my arms on his neck and did pulled his hair in the back of his head.

The kiss becomes more passionate into my all senses and it become more delectable.

His hand are now travelling in my body that I could feel the butterfly in my stomach, and the tingling sensations travelling all around my system.damn this fucking feeling I swear. I'm liking it.

"Hmm" I got moan when he did massage my left breast it gave me cringe again and again. My soul left my body because of it.

Until his lips dragged a path down my neck, kissing my neck while his teeth grazed my skin. He did bite it softly at the flesh before sucking my skin. That leaves hickey in the part that no one would notice it.

"Ugh" I moan again and it makes me groan while he was doing it. At the same time makes me want more of it.

Until he stop on my neck, he was still facing my neck while I'm covering my face onto his neck because of embarrassment. Did I really let him did that to me and me did that is really unbelievable.

He face me and I was looking down because of the shyness that I'm feeling right now

He lift up my head using his finger pointing at my chin. While his other hand are still in my waist.

Until I heard him chuckled that made me feel angry and put my hands on my side tss. Is he really laughing at me. Didn't he see that laughing at me also made me blush damn him to death tss.

"Sorry I was just so happy when you got so shy and blush because of me" shock written all of me when he said blush damn him. Even if it was true.

"N-no I'm n-not" I turn my head down again.

Seconds passed when I just felt him hugging me tightly while I'm processing what he did.

"I'm so happy that you came into my life... Damn fucking happy" tear fell down my cheeks because of what he said. I know I'm like a monster making him hope and wishing for something that I don't deserve.... it was like I'm the one who's pregnant because I've been crying without any reason.

He might be not my future but he will always be part of my heart and soul because he made me realize every little thing that I did and even the thing of hurting others.

I may leave him but my heart would stay to him, without him knowing it.

He let go of me and I forgot to wipe my tears that made him looked at me and wipe it for me.

"Why are you crying?" I maybe so selfish for wishing that the time stops, me with him while we were laughing together even if not forever just a lifetime.

"I-im s-sorry" apologizing wasn't enough but I wouldn't be tired asking his forgiveness even if it was my last breath in earth.

"What for baby?" He cupped my both cheeks and stare at my eyes with full of happiness and worried about me crying I guess And asking his forgiveness.

"I-I-" I can't utter a words. I want to speak but nothing's coming out on my mouth. I want to tell everything but my mind keep minding me that it's still not the time that I should wait for the right time to tell him everything without giving him an explanation for him to forget about me easily.

"I'm going now, maybe you just need to rest." I just nod and he just kiss me on my forehead. I wish this is all a dream. I wish I could know him on the different way not like this way giving revenge on him, on the person that I now love the most but we weren't meant to be with each other.

If I could go back the time. I wouldn't accept hurting him but I will never regret on loving him wholeheartedly because he made me feel tickling, cringe, butterfly on my stomach and sensations that gives me more delectable feelings on my system. I maybe be overreacting but I wouldn't mind as long as he makes me feel every kind of feeling that I always wanted to feel even just for a seconds.

Leaving him wasn't my choice but my decision, it will heal me to the point that I will just forget everything that I have for him. This is selfishness and foolishness but I'll be ready to stood down in that level instead of being with him but I'm feeling guilty and hurt.

I'm ready to be lonely than make him suffer while I was with him.

"Take care... always" I said while looking at him on his car.

"I will baby... you too, rest well okay?" I nod and he did wink at me that made me smile a bit.

*Vroom* earlier someone leave his car that's why he has a car to use now

He left after it and I'm still looking to where he drive his car until I lost the shadow of his car.

"I wish after all... you could forgive me even if its impossible to wish for"

I turn around to go back in our house while looking down the floor until I saw foot infornt of me then lift up my head.

"Your hurting honey" that wasn't a question but a statement. My tears start to flow down when mom said it. I run towards her and hug her so tight and made me cry so hard.

"M-mom huhuhu😭"

"My baby really grown up"

"Huhuhu😭 I w-wish huhuhu😭 I didn't grown up mom"

I wish I'm still a baby without a problem without thinking on every decisions that I'm going to do.

"You will always be my baby samantha so be brave for me honey because I don't want to see you suffer a lot"

"HUHUHU😭...*SOB* HUHUHU😭"

EVERYTHING WAS A MISTAKE... I HATE BEING THE ONE WHO MAKE EVERYTHING MISERABLE.