I'm cold

That kiss just lasted for a few seconds but it's more than enough to melt down my heart. Napaupo ako sa hagdan dahil pakiramdam ko ay nanghina pati ang mga tuhod ko. Now, I left out star struck.

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Pagdating ko sa kuarto ko ay bumagsak ako agad sa kama ko. I'm still in a shock. And I still can't believe it. And then I began day dreaming again that I can't help myself from touching my lips. I felt something I can't explain and it just keep on tickling me.

I was like that for a couple of hours and I think I've gone crazy. But as I stand to eat, nasagi ko ang isang frame at bumagsak sa floor. Pinulot ko siya and pagtingin ko ay napawi agad ang mga ngiti ko. It's the picture of my mom. I softly put it back in the table and I quietly went in the kitchen.

While I am eating, my brain seems alive again. My heart is still on fire but I think I can think normally now. Then, I began to think about that kiss.

Then, i realize that It is my first kiss but to him, it's just his good luck gift for me to forget him. So again, i felt that my heart began to ache. Why? Bakit kailangang sa ganitong paraan?That evil vampire. Ang tanging tanong na paulit ulit sa utak ko ay 'bakit kailangan niya akong halikan?'

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Three days passed and I think I still can't even go back to zero yet. The impact of that kiss is strong enough that I can't kick it out of my mind no matter what I do. Pero sinasabi ko parin sa sarili ko that through time it'll surely cool off as long as I can manage to avoid seeing him again.

I'm here waiting for taxi and as usual umuulan na naman. Hindi ko na naman dala ang payong ko kaya pagdating ko sa building namin ay tumaktakbo na naman ako. And as I enter the main door, a student bumped at me. I fell in the floor dahil malakas ang pagkabundol niya sa akin. I'm sure he is rushing. Pero pagtingin ko sa kanya ay, Hyunwoo?

"Noona?" Mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin at inalalayan ako patayo. It's been nearly three weeks na hindi ko siya nakita. He is just as cute as he is pero hindi na siya makatingin ng diretso sa akin.

"Uhm... I'm sorry Noona." He said awkwardly. Seeing him act like that towards me makes feel bad. Pero, ano nga ba ang aasahan ko? I told those kind of words to this poor little boy. I'm sure he was hurt by it so bad.

"It's Okay." Tanging nasabi ko sa kanya. Pero, he is not just looking awkward. Bakit parang natataranta siya?

"Uhm... Noona..." I know he wanted to say something. And I think i really have a soft spot for this boy now.

"It's okay you can tell me." Sabi ko. And as soon as he heard me ay parang nabuhayan siya ng loob. Mabilis niyang binuksan ang bag niya at may iniabot siya sa akin. Tinanggap ko siya at pagtingin ko ay, medicines?

"Noona uhm.. I need to catch the flight going to Manila right now. Something happened to my dad kaya I need to go home." Sabi niya.

"Uuwi ka nang Korea?" bigla kong tanong.

"Yes Noona. And that medicine is for hyung. He is sick. Noona please do this for me. I beg you." Pagmamakaawa niya. I can tell that he's in a real panic kaya tumango nalang ako sa kanya. Nagpasalamat siya at niyakap ako ng mahigpit bago siya tumakbo palayo.

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Nasa harap na ako ng unit ni Jin. Hyunwoo gave me his room's key. Ang totoo, alam kong hindi ito makabubuti sa akin pero I can't stop worrying about him.

Binuksan ko na agad ang unit niya at pumasok sa loob. It is so silent. Nakapatay rin ang mga ilaw kaya binuksan ko siya. The only thing that I can hear is the sound of the falling rain. Medyo kinabahan na ako kaya mabilis akong nagtungo sa kuarto niya.

The light is on so I can see him sleeping in his bed. Lumapit ako sa kanya. I'm about to touch his forehead to know how's his temperature when he suddenly grabbed my wrist. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya, but as soon as he recognized me ay binitawan rin niya agad ang kamay ko. But kinabahan ako lalo dahil sobrang init nang kamay niya.

"What're you doing here? Is this your way to forget me?" mahina pero nang-aasar pa ring sabi niya.

"I'm doing this for Hyunwoo." Agad kong sagot sa kanya. Pero ngumisi lang siya. Kahit ba may sakit ang bampirang to ay ganyan parin siya?

"Dala ko ang gamut mo." Sabi ko sa kanya at pumunta na ako agad sa kusina at kumuha ng tubig. Pinainom ko na siya ng gamot. Pagkalagay ko sa basang cloth sa forehead niya ay nagsalita na naman siya while his eyes were closed.

"Go out now. You've done enough. Don't worry, hindi ako mamatay nang dahil lang sa fever." Tamlay na salita niya.

"But you're way too hot. Kung dalhin nalang kaya kita sa hospital." Pilit ko sa kanya.

"Are you an idiot? How could you even forget me if you're like this? Go now, unless you want to sleep with me." Nakangisi na namang sabi niya.

This vampire is really... Hindi ba niya alam na nag-aalala ako sa kanya? Bakit ba kailangan niyang ulit ulitin ang mga salitang forget me?

"Fine, if you need something just call me." Inis na sumbat ko.

"Yeah! Turn off the light please." Sabi niya at nagkumot na siya.

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It's been an hour na nakahiga ako sa bed ko pero I just can't sleep at all. I'm still worried about him. Hindi ko rin alam at hindi ko iniwan sa room niya ang susing ibinigay ni Hyunwoo sakin.

Tingin ako nang tingin sa cellphone ko but wait, does he even have my number? Ahh.. Wala nga pala akong number sa kanya. And I don't even have his.

Another hour passed by and it's already 11. Bumangon na ako para puntahan siya. I'm just going to check on him. Babalik rin ako agad.

Dahan dahan akong pumasok sa kuarto niya. Hindi ko na binuksan ang ilaw dahil I'm afraid na magising siya. So I slowly went near him and dahan dahan kong iniligay ang kamay ko sa forehead niya. And huh? Kinabahan na naman ako masyado dahil hindi man lang bumaba ang temperature niya. Nagsimula na rin akong mataranta when he grabbed my hand again.

"I'm cold." Pabulong at walang buhay na sabi niya.

"A...anong gagawin ko? Nasan ang mga..." napatigil ako ng hilain niya ako palapit sa kanya. Napansinghap nalang ako ng mapasubsub ako sa dibdib niya.