forty two

She looked right into my eyes, and her lips curved up slightly in a sad smile. "I'm sorry Tae, so, so sorry. I never should have left you. I love you, and I hope you can forgive me for hurting you." A tear rolled down her cheek, and I couldn't stop myself from reaching up, and catching it with my thumb. It was wet. It was real. She was real. I wasn't dreaming.

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You woke up, realizing that you had fallen asleep in the chair even though you'd tried so hard not to.

Then you noticed Taehyung, sitting on the edge of the bed, his back to you. You wondered if he'd seen you at all.

You watched him for a few minutes, seeing him stretch his arms over his head, your eyes wandering over his shoulders, down his back, to his waist.

Your ears perked up when you heard him speak, trying to make out what he was saying. "You love acting, pabo, so just act like your fine..."  It sunk in that he was talking to himself.

You wanted him to know you were there, that you'd come back to him. 

"Taehyung" you whispered, waiting to see if he would turn around. But he didn't. You saw him freeze, just for a moment, then his shoulders slumped, his head dropping.

He stood, but he didn't move, and you wondered if maybe he thought he must be dreaming.

"Tae, I know you can hear me, and I know you probably think your dreaming right now..."

"I am dreaming, you left me, and I know you aren't really here," he whispered.

God that hurt your heart, because you had, foolishly, left him. You took a breath, and slowly stood, then walked towards him, coming around the end of the bed, and going to stand right in front of him.

You looked him right in the eye, and his jaw clenched, his expression changing to one of anger. The corners of your mouth turned up a tiny bit, a worried smile on your lips.

"I'm sorry Tae, so, so sorry. I never should have left you. I love you, and I hope you can forgive me for hurting you."

A tear rolled down your cheek, and his hand came up, his thumb catching it.

His face instantly registered surprise, before his expression softened, the anger gone.

"You're really here," he whispered, his breath catching in his throat.

Your smile grew, and then you felt his other hand at your waist, sliding around you, pulling you close to him. His eyes filled with tears as he gazed at your face.

"You came back..." he murmured, "I'm not dreaming."

"You're not dreaming, Taehyung... and as long as you still want me here, I'm never leaving again."

His lips parted slightly. His hand that had come up earlier to catch your tear was still there, his fingers resting lightly against the side of your neck. His thumb, which was still on your cheek, moved...to slide across your lips.

You saw his tongue come out to wet his own lips, and he leaned in, his lips meeting yours sweetly, your heart exploding with happiness, relief, and so much love.

His hand slid around, his fingers weaving thru your hair, holding you there, even as he backed off slightly, whispering against your lips "please don't ever leave me again..."

"I won't I won't...I promise," you pressed your lips to his again, wanting to taste him, your mouth opening, your tongues pressing together. You kissed him hungrily, your hands sliding into his hair, your body leaning into him.

You felt his hands tugging at the hem of your t-shirt, lifting it, and you backed up a bit, lifting your arms as he pulled it over your head, tossing it away.

He kissed your jaw, and your head fell back, giving him access to your neck. His lips moved down, over the curve of your breasts, his hands warm on your skin, sliding up your back, the clasp of your bra being his target.

You felt it pop open, felt his hands glide up, sliding the straps off your shoulders, and you lowered your arms, allowing it to slide down and fall to the floor between you.

His mouth immediately captured your hardened nipple, his tongue swirling around it. Your hands came back up, fingers tangling into his hair, breathing labored as he sucked, his teeth lightly grazing the sensitive bud as he released it, moving to the other side.

Your whole body shivered, and you felt tingling pressure in your pelvis, as if you were being squeezed from the inside.

His fingers grazed your stomach as he undid the button on your jeans, sliding the zipper down, grabbing the waistband, and rolling it down your hips, your lacey underwear soon to be the only thing you were wearing.

His mouth still worked on your breast, nibbling, licking, sucking, and between that, and the warmth of his fingers now sliding your jeans down your legs, you were finding it hard to remember to breathe.

He finally released your breast, dropping to his knees, his hands sliding down your leg, lifting your foot so he could pull your pant leg off, then doing the same to the other foot, tossing your pants aside.

His hands settled on your hips, and you watched, mouth opened, breathing hard, as he leaned in and pressed his lips to the small triangle of lace covering you, his fingers curling around the thin band at your hips.

Your grasped his shoulders as he slid the lacey material down, letting it fall. His fingers slid back up your thighs, trailing heat, his hands stopping once more to rest on your hips, holding you as he leaned forward again.

You gasped, trembling as his mouth covered your throbbing center, his tongue sliding inside, finding your clit, teasing it. Your knees buckled, your fingers digging into his shoulders, and suddenly he was standing, holding you up, hugging you close to him.

He turned so that he could lift you onto the bed, placing you in the spot that he had occupied for the last three days. You watched, your chest rising and falling heavily, as he removed first his shirt, then his sweats, pushing them down past his hips, letting them fall, stepping on them to pull his feet free.

He wasn't wearing underwear, your gaze having been drawn down the moment his sweats had dropped. Your eyes widened at the sight of his dick, hard, leaking, and you trembled with anticipation.

You wanted to feel him filling you up, thrusting into you, your climax building to explosive heights.

He moved over you, his knees coaxing your legs apart, his hips coming to rest on yours. You could feel his length pressed between your bodies.

He rested on his elbows, looking into your eyes "I don't ever want to let you out of my sight again." He whispered.

You frowned, the pain of what you had caused once again surfacing, your eyes filling with tears. "I wish I could turn back time, and take back what I did, take back the hurt I put you thru. I'll never forgive myself, because you didn't deserve it." You spoke quietly, your voice shaky.

He smiled sweetly, kissing you softly. "It doesn't matter. You're here. We have plenty of time to talk about it, but not now. Right now, I just wanna love you."

Your heart felt like a balloon being inflated, and you felt it was going to explode any second. How could he only want to love you? Why wasn't he angry with you for just leaving him, without any warning? You were amazed at his capacity to forgive you, to love you as if you'd never hurt him. You were so overcome with emotion that the tears filling your eyes overflowed, spilling down your cheeks.

He kissed them away, kissing your eyes, then your nose, and finally your lips. You opened your eyes, looking at him with all the love you had. "Please love me Tae...please...don't ever stop..."

"I don't intend to stop..."

He raised his hips, and you felt him reach down as you spread your legs more, feeling the head of his dick pressing into you. You raised your hips, eager to feel him inside you, sucking in a breath as he sunk into you in one quick motion. He remained still though, and you whimpered, attempting to move your hips, wanting him to move, to ease the ache you felt.

He looked right at you, his eyes locking with yours, and shook his head ever so slightly.

"Not this time y/n. This time, we aren't having sex." His eyes flashed. "This time, I'm going to make love to you. This time, I'm going to take my time. This time...I'm going to make you mine, and only mine, so that you'll never want another man."

Your heart pounded with excitement, your breathing  evening out as this beautiful man started moving slowly, hips pumping in a steady, unhurried rhythm, little twinges of pleasure hitting you with each gentle thrust. Your hands moved along his back, feeling his muscles moving under your fingertips.

You could feel the heat slowly intensifying, your climax building little by little. It was like a slow, agonizing blissful torture, one that you wished you could hurry along, but at the same time, drag out forever.

He kissed your shoulder, nibbling on your skin, working his way towards your neck, then kissing up to your ear. He took your earlobe between his teeth, tugging on it lightly, causing you to shiver.

"You're mine, y/n, don't forget that..." he whispered breathlessly in your ear.

Your lips curved up slightly, your eyes closing, your heart wanting nothing more than to belong to this man forever.

He continued his slow, gentle lovemaking, whispering in your ear how much he loved you, how he would never love anyone like he loved you, begging you to never forget it. You knew you wouldn't.

You were getting close, breathing quickening, and you wanted him to go faster.

"Taehyung, p...please, I'm s..so close" you gasped out. He just smiled, then leaned in to press his lips to yours, kissing you slowly, his tongue sliding into your mouth as you moaned.

His movements came to a stop, and you cried out, trying to keep moving, wanting the waves of pleasure to overtake you. But he held you still, his forehead pressed to yours, his breathing uneven, his eyes holding yours. "Promise me again that you won't ever leave me."

"I promise Tae, with every breath I breathe, with every beat of  my heart, from the very center of my soul, I promise I will never leave you again..." you said breathlessly.

His eyes stayed locked on yours, as he started to move again, slowly at first, but picking up pace with every thrust of his hips. You knew you were going to spin out of control any minute, the twitches of pleasure more intense, as your walls clenched around him.

Suddenly, your body arched, nails digging into his back, and you called his name as your legs shook, too lost in your own euphoric bliss to notice his head thrown back, his body tense, his arms shaking, hips twitching as he came. You held tight to him, riding it out, your quick pants of breath slowing, getting longer as your body eventually relaxed.

Once you had both caught your breath, Tae moved to lay beside you, and like every time before, pulled you into his arms, and held you, letting you fall asleep to the beat of his heart, and you knew without a doubt, that his heart beat only for  you.

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