I went to the first floor where I sat down and went on to think of everything that just happened. My goal in all of this was to... well, move on. I just hit rock bottom, the only way I could go right now is up. I will live a life worth living without them... and this time I will learn from my mistake.
"Special Skill: Block Counter (Proficiency 0/10000, LV3): Upon blocking an enemy's attack, discover their weak point and counterattack, causing armor-penetrating damage that cannot be defended against! Limited by stamina."