The ending is too vague. As if saying, it's up to us to interpret the ending. I also read the last chapter multiple times. My optimistic self, choose to believe that they were together at the end due to the part "bright ray of light" mentioned at the end. My pessimistic self, says that it's all just a dream and he died too. Ahhhhhh.. the author is so cruel..🥺😢😭 Well, let's choose the former and move on.. there's more BL to read. 🥰

First time I encountered the word scha·den·freu·de. Need to google it. 😆😁😂