So Near Yet So Far

Freya Anderson

A lot of memories flashed in my head . I was confusd . I didn't want to believe it . It just seemed imposible in every way.

The person who had killed my mother was right under my nose all this time .

But how was she able to do it .

Aunt Shay has been nothing but a mother to me ever since my mother passed away , infact she's always been a mother to me even before my mother passed away .

"No it Can't be " , I said in a hushed tone so that no one from outside could hear me .

Why was I still debating about all this when she said it herself ..

But why?, are the two words that kept echoing in my ears shutting out all the ten footsteps that  made themselves heard as the men came for me .

I am tired , and weak. I haven't eaten for days not to mension drinking. Running away now will be hopeless.

I'll wait for them to find me and finish me off. It won't take them too long to realise that I'm in the closet .

I felt like bile came up my trought and I could taste it's bitterness . With my knees suddenly crashing on the floor I couldn't hold it any longer .Tears clouded my eyes , tears made their way down my cheeks and I started sobbing.

I didn't care if they were going to find me now but I just had to let out the pain that I felt right now.

It was like I'd been stabbed with hundreds of sharp knives in less than a minute

No matter how strong I've been .I haven't been so much disappointed in my life . This is just too much to handle.

(FLASHBACK)

Everyone was so happy .We'd been eagerly waiting for this day .

Everyone was wearing a thousand dollar smile on their faces not to mention my father.He was the happiest man on earth.

It was as if he couldn't believe that he was celebrating his 30th wedding anniversary.

As their wedding anniversary suprise I had spy cameras installed in the area where the event would take place .And I did not tell that to anyone .

I hated the fact  that camera men only took a few pictures so I wanted the whole event in one peace so that they would get to watch it when the event was over.

" Come on Mike  , mom and dad are about to come down you can't miss this , later on you'll be asking me what happened and I won't tell you" I said banging his bedroom door

"Ok Ok I'm coming just give me a few seconds I'm almost done here."

"Seriously? How long does it take for you to get dressed, are you wearing make up or something ? ".

Mike was taking too long he's usaully the first one to finish dressing up for anything but today he was taking forever. I can't take this anymore. He'll miss it, why should I care it will be his problem.

Then I suddenly here arguments in  the room opposite Mike's and as far as I remember on one uccupied that bedroom.

I don't like eves dropping but I found my ear sticking to that very same  door , I don't know how but then I guess curiosity got the best of me and I had to listen and it was worth listening.

*and very much*

" Peter , get me the Merchandise , Bruce will be the one to complete the job . Make sure you don't miss it this time.",

Miss ?what are these people talking about I really have to find Father cause what ever that they're planning I just don't like the sound of it .

Who would secretly come here . Let me open the door.

I gently opened the door and  when I almost had a crack enough for me to peak,  the door hinges made a slight sound causing me to quickly bang the door trying to make it as silent as a  I could but then I guess it wasn't silent enough because they heard it .

"Who's that ", a female familiar voice asked but I can't figure out who's vioce it was but I knew that I've heard it somewhere but I couldn't place it on anyone but I knew that I've heard it somewhere and a lot..

"I'll go get it ",

"No wait this might  be one of them I'll go get it ", I heard high heel foot steps coming by the door .

I made a bee line for the guest bathroom trying to tip toe so that whoever that came after me couldn't follow me in here.

Fifteen minutes later I'm still hiding behind the shower curtain and I had made sure to turn the knob that's behind the door handle that means that even if that person had followed me here the was no way he or she was going to get inside unless the had the keys or were some sort of secret spies . I giggled to my self as that thought crossed my mind.

pshh what would they want at an anniversary, unless. Or it might be ...Ohhh shit I have to find father now!

I was lost for a moment ,I suddenly come back to my senses when I heard a loud thud followed by another from down stairs then  what could have that been?

Soon after the thud are screams and cries ... I want to go see what's happening but I can't before I know if it's safe or not .

My hearts racing and my mind all over the place.

"BEATRICE!" I heard my father scream.

Anxiety engulfed me until that one word got me running downstairs like a headless chicken.

Mother laid at the floor lifelessly as if she was begging to be saved but I couldn't do anything .

The bullet had mercilessly pierced her forehead and the other one at her left arm.They were aiming for her heart

My face was filled with tears .People were trying all they could to get hold of the emergency services near by,but me knowing very well that she would not survive, I rather wanted to be right next to her .

She  brought her hand up and carefully caressed my cheek with her bloodied hand . The wine red fabric near her arm that made contact with the wounded arm changed and became a darker shade of maroon.

Mike cried even louder when he saw the pool of blood that our mother was covered in.

I tried pulling her up to embrace her for the last time  and she allowed me to, slightly coming up with the last energy she had.

I dropped her and saw her draw in her last breath and watched her body separate from it's soul.

I felt my heart sink into something I didn't know but it was the worst kind of pain anyone could ever want in their life .

It felt like the end of everything  not by the fact that she was no more but by what she whispered to my ear when I had embraced her . I couldn't stay there and see them take my mother's lifeless body out of the room.

**

Soon after that the police did all the evidence collecting and questins.They came late. Maybe they could have caught them.

The scene  constantly  kept replaying itself in my mind. Everything that has been happening is all my fault. What if the people who'd been talking in that room were the one's who killed her.

It's all my fault. I could have talked earlier.

If I hadn't chickened out maybe my mother would still be alive right now ..

If only I had called someone or  maybe the police ,things wouldn't be the way they are right now.

Mike doesn't have a mother because of me.

what have I done?

This is all my fault.

Sammy's parents were the last ones to leave as Sammy had brought me to my room together with her mother .

Blake , Sammy's elder brother was with Mike at the moment .

Sammy also kept crying which made me cry even more .I got all the blood cleaned up and tried to get some sleep but I didn't get a wink of it...

The following morning I woke up with a heavy heart.The Sun rays pierced through the curtains.

Morning had come too soon for me and I looked at the side of my bed reality sank in .

I didn't have a mother any longer as the was no tea at the side of my bed .

She's gone