Chapter Thirty-Four

A couple days later I get a video message from San that shows him talking to me and apologizing for ignoring me and not really saying goodbye or anything. He holds up the photos I gave him and told me he will hold onto these forever smiling the whole time and talk whenever he can and then you can hear in the background "Are you talking to Hirami?" from Yeosang and when he realizes he is making a video for me he screams for everyone who then runs in there and it is utter chaos on the video people snatching the phone and saying how much they miss me and love me and am working hard for me and also for themselves and each other which makes me happy. I started searching for apartments because this one is too big for me to be by myself. It has been difficult, sand I start back school shortly so that is another struggle. It is a whole mess.

A month or so later....

Today I am going to the school to get my class list and books. So, the video message was a good start to my day. I have been incredibly lonely in this place by myself it is so big and empty. I have been looking for a different place and Pentagon said they would help me move when they can when I find a place so that is nice of them. I do not know when I will be able to see the boys again but hopefully soon. I get random texts from each of them every once in awhile and I always send back selfies of me doing random things like finger hearts and just dorky things to keep their spirits high.

I take a shower after eating and get ready to go wearing shorts and a t-shirt and some sneakers. Once at the school I go to the office and speak to the lady. "Kim Hirami. Good to see you back this year. Good luck sweetie." The office lady said to me handing me my schedule and my books. I turn around and see someone behind me nearly bumping into them. "Mianhae" I say not realizing they had grabbed my arm to stop me from falling into them. "It's fine. Have a good day." He said smiling at me and releasing my arm and going to the office lady to get his stuff. I just went ahead and left. After putting my books in the car. I got a phone call. "Hello?" I said answering it. "Hiramiiii what are you doing today?" Shinwon asked me in a sing song voice making me laugh. "Hanging out with you?" I question which makes some of the other members scream with joy. "Okay I will pick you up in half an hour." He says then says goodbye and I drive to the house and having just enough time to put up my books and make sure I look cute before I hear a knock on the door. I grab my keys and open the door and get greeted with a hug from Shinwon. "Well hello there" I say smiling as he takes my hand and we walk to Pentagon's dorm, he is wearing disguises so he would not be recognized. Once we get to Pentagon's dorm I get greeted by screams of "HELLOOO" and each of them are clamoring on each other to get to me first making me laugh. Yuto is the first to get to me hugging me and then picking me up swiftly and running to the couch with me in his arms and lays me down and starts tickling me making Shinwon, and Kino join in. After a few minutes of me dying they suddenly stop for some reason letting me catch my breath. Then when I catch my breath, I see them all looking at my stomach weird. I look down and realize my shirt came up some in their tickle attack showing my scar. "What happened?" Yuto is the first to ask. "Can I touch the scar?" Wooseok asks getting slapped by Jinho who says it is not a gentlemanly thing to do to be touching a lady. I sit up adjusting my shirt as they all gather around me in a circle me being in the middle of Yuto and Shinwon. "Well you once said I would have to explain how I ended up in a house full of so many guys and well this is it." I begin telling them everything from me being friends with Yunho when we were kids and up until shortly after my parents died and then how I basically pushed him away. The abuse from my uncle and then how one night he had finally had enough and then the next thing I knew I was in the hospital meeting Ateez. Then how the girls at school sent me back to the hospital again. "Woah that is crazy" Jinho says. "I would have never let you have pushed me away" Yuto and Shinwon say almost together making me smile. "Well I would not talk to him no matter what he probably still wanted to be friends and I did too but I just did not see the point anymore with all the bad that was happening." I say looking at my hands. Shinwon grabs my hand and pulls me into a hug to which ends in a group hug from all the members making me sniffle a bit because I miss Ateez. "Hirami? Why are you crying?" Shinwon says pulling my face up to look at him wiping the stray tears. "Not used to being by myself since Ateez is training now and this hug from all of you made me realize how lonely it is haha" I say trying to laugh it off. "Aw it's okay we will be here for awhile working on our new stuff" Hui says putting his arm around me. "What's your favorite song by us?" Yeoone asks. "Well off the new album I love Shine. It is so catchy; I listen to it all the time." I say smiling at them which makes them all start doing the chorus dance immediately singing being a complete mess making me laugh. After they get done doing that a bit, we all settled down and played some games and then they were filling me in on things about their fan meetings and tours. Kino especially lighting up and smiling reminiscing on meeting Universe. How excited they were to work on their upcoming album asking me if I wanted to come with them to dance practices and if I would come to their comeback concerts. I told them I would if I could get a ticket and was not in school and of course if it did not interfere with my favorite boys Ateez's events. "So, if you had to choose between us or them in the kpop world who would you choose since you liked us as idols first?" Hong Seok asks. "Well I mean Ateez is my family now, so it isn't really fair to ask that. I love them and I do love you guys as idols and as my friends. They were there for me when I really needed someone and took me in when they definitely didn't have to." I say feeling bad about letting them down. "I will always support you guys though!" I say smiling at them all making them happy about that. The rest of the night is spent with us talking and Hong Seok made food to which I helped being excited to have been invited over. After food some of them whine about me leaving but I reassure them I will be back, and I am huddled with hugs as Shinwon walks me home. "I am sorry about all the bad things that happened to you, but I am happy to have met you Hirami." He says stopping at the park before home. "I would have never in a million years thought I would have run into you or any of the members in real life. To find out you are all so kind and funny are truly the best I could have ever wished for. I appreciate all these glorious people in my life Ateez and you guys. Also thank you for letting me over today since the guys left it just hasn't been the same ya know?" I say kicking a rock across the way. Shinwon hugs me "We all like you being there especially me." He says as we reach the house. "Well I am glad to provide some happiness for you guys. Call me when you get home safe or text me or something." I say hugging him before we say our goodbyes he agrees. I go inside and get ready for bed checking my phone hoping for something from my favorite boys, but nothing today, I guess. I wait for Shinwon to call me which he facetimed me "helloooo" I said to the smiling Shinwon. "I got home safely I just wanted to tell you! Goodnight Hirami-ah I hope you have sweet dreams." He says and I wish the same and we hang up. I lay in the bed for an hour and my phone goes off and I scramble to pick it up. "Hello?" I say to the facetime that looks dark and suddenly San pops up on the screen. "Rami can you see me?" He asks "Hey you yes I can see you" I say smiling instantly at his adorable face. "I didn't wake you, did I?" he asks looking a bit worried. "No, I couldn't seem to sleep. What about you what are you doing up so late?" I ask, "We just got back from practice, ate and I showered and wanted to talk to you even if it was for a few minutes and see you of course." He says smiling that smile that gets my heart pumping. "How are things going? Are you guys taking care of yourselves?" I ask "We are good, tired to be honest, but I believe we can do it. We have been practicing very hard." He says with a yawn. "Sounds like you are sleepy." I say giggling at him. "That laugh brightens my mood Rami, I miss it and you..." he trails off.

San POV

"Sannie! Sing me something before we have to go to sleep." She says sounding happy. I smile and start singing JBJ's My Flower and it is not long before I see her eyelids flutter shut and hear the sounds of her sleeping. "Goodnight Rami I hope you have sweet dreams." I say before I hang up the facetime and crawl into bed and fall asleep feeling much better after talking to my Rami.

End of San POV